Pain of love/ Bill & Tom Kaulitz x Y/N

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I opened my eyes and almost immediately sat up in my hotel bed. I slept with makeup on, my hair was a mess and I smelled like cigarettes. I scratched my head for a moment before remembering last night. I slapped my hands over my face and groaned loudly, it was almost a scream. Tom kissed me last night, and I was a jerk. No! He's the jerk, he has no manners.

I stood up out of my bed and walked to my suitcase, I knelt down in front of it and pulled out a set of clothes. I started to feel guilt in my chest. I was angry at him but I didn't need to throw his keys at him or shove him. I stood up and brought my clothes into the bathroom before shutting the door behind me and stripping. I hopped into the shower and played some music on my speaker. I danced along to some of the music and sang along while trying to get these anxious thoughts out of my head.

After my shower I put on my comfy clothes and put some moisturizer on my skin before grabbing my keys and throwing on some shoes. I was going to go to the breakfast lounge and then stop by the gym. As much as I tried to distract myself I felt really guilty. Tom was famous, he let it get to his ego and acted like a jerk. He was drunk too. I tried to convince myself there were reasons he acted this way, so that he didn't have to be the bad person in the situation.

I walked into the private breakfast lounge and sat my stuff down on a table, Bill was in there watching the mtv live news. I walked past him at his table and over to grab some yogurt and fruit. I grabbed my stuff and walked to my table quietly not wanting to speak to anybody just yet. The two of us sat far away from eachother silently with the mtv crew talking in the background for a while. Bill seemed very interested in the news today. I tuned the tv out until I heard my name on the tv.

My head quickly turned, I listened with my full attention.

"Y/N Y/L/N and Tom Kaulitz spotted last night in his new cadillac enjoying some intimate moments together." The interviewer said, I looked at the back of Bills head, I was waiting for him to look at me. To smirk to laugh to judge. He didn't move a muscle, he ate his food and watched the television.

I took a deep breath, trying to keep myself from crying. Being so in the media was frustrating at times. I jumped at the sound of my phone ringing, Bills head turned as well. His eyes met mine for a second before I looked down at my phone. It was Sasha. Sasha was calling me. I felt sick to my stomach. I silenced the call and looked back up at Bill. He smiled at me gently, his eyes looked very genuine and soft. I looked at him plainly, fighting off the urge to cry. My phone rang again, and I silenced it another time. Then again, I cancelled the call. All the calls were coming from Sasha. Another call came up on my phone and i powered my phone off quickly.

"Are you okay?" Bill asked me breaking the silence. I looked back up at him after staring at my black phone screen.

"Uh-" I said, my mind went completely blank. He had no makeup on, his skin was shiny and flawless, and this was the first time I noticed his tongue ring. I looked back up at his face after staring at his lips.

"Just a little frustrated today that's all." I replied and shot him a fake smile. He smiled back and stood up, he tossed his food into the trash before walking to my table. He pulled a chair out and sat down in front of me.

"Tom told me what happened. I know you probably don't want to hear this right now but he's sorry. My brother acts like this sometimes and I don't know why. He's let the fame bring his ego through the roof." Bill said, he slid a small flower over to me, I didn't see him pull it from his pocket or wherever he had it.

I looked down at it and picked it up, I looked at it and twirled it in my fingers.

"You're very sweet thank you." I said, a genuine smile forming on my face, I looked back up at him, our eyes met.