High On | JJK series

Ch 30:- Falls

Y/n pov

Instead of going back home, I drove to somewhere I knew I will find peace. I was disturbed, I needed a way out and I needed to calm down and think right.

I realized for the first time, I was rushing stuff. It had just been 2 days and I was rushing to stuff with divorce and separation. It was a rash decision due to the emotional turmoil going in my mind.

All I thought was run away as fast as I can, but why do I always run away?? No, I can't run away, I needed to face this, face this monster in front of me instead of running away from it and for that, I needed a clarity.

As soon as I reached the place I wanted to be in, I closed my eyes. The empty stadium reminded of what happened 2 days back. Yes it was the same stadium. I stared forward, my mind racing with thought before I slide down the glass of the helmet.

Holding the throttle, I took a deep breath before racing forward. I didn't think, didn't care, I just drove, raced, speeded up on the track. The speed slowly increased from 20 to 60, my focus on the road wavered, as Jungkook's guilty eyes flashed in front of my eyes, the look he had when he lost-

I groaned as I fell down on the ground. I closed my eyes for a while as I sighed, remembering words Yeri told me once. 'Focus.. clarity and goal.. that's important, in both race track and life... know what you goal in Y/n.. you need to be clear about that to not.. fall down...'

I got up and picked my bike before getting on it again and driving again and again as I kept falling, my mind wasn't clear, wasn't focusing cause it was with him. My goal wasnt clear either. What was my goal?? Why was I running away?? Why was I not able to face this like how I face every problem?

If it cause I'm too scared to lose myself or was it cause, I'm scared to lose him? That I still believed in one part of my heart that... maybe.. it wasn't his fault??

His eyes kept flashing in my mind, those guilty ones, those sad ones, shocked ones... I'm was going crazy and he was the reason.

Finally I just got off the bike and went to sit down. I removed my helmet harshly before covering my face with my palms. I let out a frustrated sigh before looking at the sky.

"You weren't focusing right.." I looked beside me to see Yeri, looking at the sky too. I looked at her and looked down, "Sorry..." "Don't be... You are confused and hurt, I'm happy at least you realized your rush..." It was as if she knew what was going in my mind.

I felt her gaze on me as I heard her sigh, "Im not saying to listen to him... but will you listen to me??" I nodded slowly as I just looked down. Yeri slowly passed me her phone which I took, a frown took over my face.

"This was the night after... you both went on the date" Yeri said slowly as I saw the video. My eyes widened as the grip on the phone tightened. Tears brimmed in my eyes as I stared at the cruel video of Noel beating Jungkook and then threatening him.

"H-How did..." I was speechless as Yeri sighed, "Leah and Me are in this group with all Bikers of Seoul and Noel shared this video in that group" The tears finally flowed down my cheeks as I bit my lower lip.

"He was already injured cause of an accident and then this... and then..." I gasped, realizing why he silently took my beatings and turned so weak, I didn't even hit him that hard to have him heaving on the ground.

Everything seemed clear. He didn't wanna bet, he was forced, he was blackmailed, Mingyu and me on the gunpoint.. his 2 important people... He... He never wanted to.... fuck!

And I just messed up, I treated him so badly, I fucked up, I surely did. Yeri took the phone back before getting up, "5 days from today, There is a race between Noel and Jungkook..."

My head shot up,"But he is injured!!" Yeri sighed, "You think Noel cares?? He just wants what he wants.. and their bet now is..." Yeri hesitated but I stared at her as she gulped,

"Jungkook's life...." My eyes widened, "What?!" "The basic bet in 5 million dollars, but all know, Noel is planning to cause a huge mess and harm Jungkook... and..." Yeri looked at me and I gulped, realizing her words,

Jungkook knows the motive and will still race cause... I broke him bad.. Shit!

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