Another Chance At Love (Confidant Sequel)

Chapter Six

Spencer

"What do you mean by that? How could you have protected her better than you did?"

Ever since the incident happened to Olivia, I always felt like I was to blame. And now since everything has came out of the dark the blame on me feels even heavier. I always told J, Liv and their parents that whenever I'm around and whenever I'm needed that I would always protect Olivia, no matter what. And that night when she really needed the protection I wasn't there to save her, or to keep it from happening. I feel like I should've done something. I should've said something to her or hell I should've told J or maybe even Kia.

"Just like I said," I get up from my seat before exhaling deeply. "I should've been the designated driver for her, especially after Kia left."

Thinking back to that night I start to slowly feel my anger rise up along with the guilt that I've always hidden. I should've done something. I could've done something. But what? What is it that I could've done? What is it that I should've done?

"Spence, you & I both know Olivia is stubborn as hell. Even if you would've shown up, Liv being the fun Liv at that moment was going to put up a fight because she would've felt like her night was getting ruined."

I shrug my shoulders, "and that would've been a fight I was willing to put up if that meant I was protecting her. Hell I had an invite to that party too J so it wouldn't be like I was crashing it or trying to ruin her fun. I just wish I could rewind the hands of time."

"No one blames you though, Spence. You did what you needed to do when you were able to get to her & in full honesty that's all that matters. My parents and I thank you for that. I was mad at first, can't lie about that, but I honestly thank you for being there for my sister. You didn't fail at protecting her at all. Things just unfortunately happen out of our control. But know that you did nothing wrong, Spencer James."

I nod my head in response to him after pulling away from the brotherly huh & before thanking him for that. It was something that I needed to hear. Did it make me feel better? Partially. It didn't take away the guilt and anger though, because I know deep down if she was with me that night the party wouldn't have been an option. But instead we both agreed to take a rain check on our night in movie dates and do our own thing.

"Is it cool if I crash here for the night since I'm not allowed to leave and don't even have my own car?"

I laugh at his question because honestly what did he think my response would be, "yeah man it's cool. If you want you can crash on the couch or if you want you're welcome to crash in the guest bedroom which used to be—"

"My room, yeah I know," he laughs before he finally opens and now takes a sip from the room temperature bottle of water.

"I have to stop by somewhere real quick. You're going to be good by yourself?"

"Man I am about to be good & sleep for the night, trust me," he laughs, "wherever you need to go, go I'll be good but if you're thinking about going to see my sister I highly suggest you talk to one of the girls first that way a talk can actually happen because as stated we both know Olivia."

"In any other time I would agree with you but she's really the only person I need to talk especially after the heart to heart moment we just had. I'll also shoot a message to Chris letting him know that we're in for the night and to bring your car over. He has an extra key to my place too so I'll tell him to bring your keys in and lay them on the table so that you can see them."

"Aight, preciate that."

"No problem."

I step out of the house and jog down the stairs mind racing as always. I knew what I had in planned to do and say, but how exactly am I going to do it? Is she even going to want to talk to me? Will I be able to get her to open up? Am I being selfish and inconsiderate of her & her feelings? Am I pressuring her? Do even want to go through with this if she's up for talking? Will I be able to hear and stand her answers.

"You won't know anything until you pick up the phone and ask her, Spencer. Try that step first," I say aloud to myself as I sit in my car. I lock and unlock my phone a few times before I finally decide to say fuck it and allow my fingers to glide across the screen. My intentions were to text but somehow I found myself in the contact log, select her name then speaker and now I'm listening to it ring continuously. I should've just stuck with my first mind which was sending a text and putting myself on pins and needles as I anticipate her response back to me. After hearing another ring I was about to end it but before I could do that I finally hear the sweet sound of her voice in the midst of laughter coming from her. I miss hearing that from her.

"Hello," she says again.

"Wassup, didn't mean to be the cause of an interruption. I can hit you back if needed?"

"Now that right there might not be wise Mr. James consider the fact that you might not receive an answer if you do. Right now you're talking to carefree & enjoying the moment Liv, try to call back you won't get this person or opportunity again. You called for a reason so wassup."

"Damn, just straight to it huh? No chaser or nothing."

"Spencer James," she sings a warning in a sing song tone.

"Aight look I know what we agreed on earlier and I know you're enjoying yourself at the moment and I really didn't want to be the cause of your interruption, but Olivia I really need to talk to you."

I hear her sigh on the other end of the phone, "you really do know how to kill a high Spencer James."

Your brother and I have that in common because he damn sure killed mine. I think to myself.

"Is it necessary to talk now?"

"You said it yourself that I may not receive an answer to my calls if I was to call back. It's truly God's Grace that you answered tonight. So yes tonight is a night I will take to have this moment that we finally will have to talk. If it is given to me and if I not then I have no other choice but to wait until you are good & ready, whenever that is but I will respect it."

After a brief moment of silence I hear her exhaling, "girls night in died down and the bride to be is trying to get to her groom to be so you can come get me from Kia's. I won't be missed too much here and they'll have my location."

"Okay and tell Simone she may or may be able to get in touch with the groom. He's at my place and when I left out he said he was heading to sleep."

"I will indeed let her know before her mind starts to wonder and she thinks she's been purposely left on read and calls going unanswered."

"Alright," I laugh. "Thank you Olivia."

"Don't thank me too soon."

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Another filler I wanted to give. I'll try to make next chapter longer

Spencer and Olivia are finally going to talk. I wonder how that will go. Anyone know that old saying a drunk mouth speaks sober thoughts? 👀

As always excuse any and all mistakes and even tho it's coming in slowly like their slow burn love they had in the show lol I do still hope you guys are enjoying this story.