A Friend To Cling On

6 - The Excuses

|Pov: Shin Sou 

Why the heck did i do that? That wasn't in the script. I express to myself in betraying voice. 
I already know he is not going to forgive me that easily by apologizing to him yesterday. It's hasn't been a day since i apologized, and yet i already made him feel miserable again in his third day. Ugh, why do i keep doing this!! I went to the cafeteria to relax myself from what happened. After getting my food, I sat to an empty table, sitting alone, and nothing else... 

People gathered at my table. Pitying me.

I can already tell without even looking at them. All i can do for now was to eat quickly and leave immediately. I went back to the class, and i saw Ye Jun in silence. I can't talk to him right now. After what i just did earlier. How am i supposed to deal with this thing? He's literally my freaking roommate. But of course, I'm not surprised if he wants to change dorms...

Stop those thoughts! All you can do now is focus.

Just like my mind said, I can only do now to focus for my own sake. The 3rd day has finally come to an end. I wanted to leave so bad that i just wanna forget the entire thing that has happened today. I walk back to my dorm to do my homework. Being in college is really the worst for me. But i have no choice. If i want to be successful and have a successful acting career, then i have no choice but to finish it. 

I arrived at my dorm, opening the door. The first thing i saw was Ye Jun. The atmosphere was so awkward between us. I can't even relax properly. It's like i committed a big sin or something. I just went to my desk, dropping my stuff to finish the homework. A few minutes later, I heard someone knocking, and it surely wasn't Ye Jun because he's already here. "Who could that possibly be?" I wonder. I open the door, and there's two guys standing in front of our dorm, and one of them is my friend Nik. 

"Why are you guys here?" I asked. Witnessing something at Nik's eyes. "Well... I just thought that we could stay here for a day?" Vinn replied. 

"What? Why?" I questioned. "Well, you see..." Before Nik can even finish his sentence, his friend went."WE GOT kicked out because we are being too loud..." He said in a reasonable tone.

"I can let you guys stay here, but may i know who he is, Nik?" I wondered.

"Right. Shin, meet my friend Vinn." 

"It's nice to meet you, uh... Shin?" He tries to greet me in a careful way. "Shin Sou, but you can just call me Shin," I said. "Oh, okay."

After that, I let them inside of our dorm. But i forgot to ask Ye Jun if he's okay with it. Hopefully, he wouldn't mind. "Oh hey Jun!" Vinn called Ye Jun out of nowhere. "Oh hey!" He responded back to him. "You know this guy?" I asked. "Yeah. Jun is my Fav Buddy!" I got surprised at his response. Knowing Ye Jun is a typical guy who wouldn't talk to anyone randomly. But I guess I am wrong. 

Nik went towards us, applying, "Wanna do a sleepover?" 

Interesting... First, they wanna stay for a day, and now they want to have a sleepover here? Wow... even I don't know what kind of thoughts adie has.

"I-uhh..." I stutter, not knowing what to say. Should I or not? After thinking it for a long time, I can finally open my mouth without stuttering "Well I mean, sure... I guess?"

They suddenly jumped out of excitement, but of course, I wouldn't give them a lot of freedom. There's still some rules that need to be followed. I explained to them not to disturb me for unnecessary reasons.

Meanwhile, I went back to my desk, sat on my chair, and decoded my homework. After finishing my homework, I went to pull out my dairy to write my deep thoughts.

"Dear Diary, It's me, Shin Sou

Today, I really did something stupid without realizing the people I'm surrounding with. I'm a selfish person who I, myself, can't forgive what I did to my neighbor. I hate myself for being dull. I don't know how to handle this type of situation. The word "friend" to me has a lot of meaning, not just helping. The word "friend" for me is to be there by their side, suffering together, sharing pain together, and more that i can't even describe in words because of it's deep meanings. All I can do is reflect on what I did today. I could learn something from it. Despite the fact that I have not asked anyone to correct me from my mistake, It's so hard to believe that I'm still standing right here. I don't know what I did, but all I can say is Shin, you did a very great job. You deserve a break from this madness. Don't mind your neighbor for now. Let him recover to the scars you deeply gave to him.

After writing in my diary, I felt a big weight loosening in my body. Making every part of me got more lighter, tight chest getting some air to breathe, releasing some stress. I'm glad to myself that I did it. It's worth my time.

Hey, y'all, I'm back 🤪

Sorry for the sudden post, lol

I don't know when to upload the next chaoter after this, but I know that I can upload this now, lol.

See you 😜✨️