-FREEING 6- JOEY LYNCH

𝑪𝑯𝑨𝑷𝑻𝑬𝑹 16-𝑩𝒖𝒓𝒏-

   I walked away from the love of my life... The person who kept me standing on my own two feet.. I climbed to the edge of the bridge.. I dropped my bag in the water and looked into the darkness. I had nothing else too give, nothing to show.. "Don't do it!" A voice came from behind me. I turned my head around and saw Lizzie. "Why not.. I have nothing else to give to this fucking world." I said painfully. "You know this was the same bridge they jumped off of.." Lizzie said as she climbed onto the ledge of the bridge standing next to me. "What does that have to do with me.." I said as I just looked at her. "It means that she had nothing, but you have something, Joey! You have Aemma waiting for you to come home, you have siblings that need a father figure to look up to! You have so much to live for.. Caoimhe had nothing to look forward too.. Nothing." Lizzie said as tears streamed down her pale face. "They don't need me.. Aemma sure as hell needs someone way better than me. I'll just hurt her if I stay." I said as I turned my attention towards the water below me.. "And you'll hurt her more if you do it Joey.. She would want to follow in your foot steps just to be with you. She sacrificed the loss of a friend for you and she already lost someone she loved, she lost my brother, Joey! She wouldn't be able to live with another lost in her life! You mean everything to her!" Lizzie said as she just looked at me. The sound of sirens came from afar. "If you jump, then you're taking me with you!" Lizzie said as she wrapped her arms around me. An ambulance and fire truck drove fast past us. "I'm not going to do it.." I said as I took her with me off the ledge. "What's happening..?" I said as I looked a Lizzie.. "A house caught on fire, when I was walking over here. Some house on Elks Terrence." Lizzie said. "I need to go back to my family.." I said as I looked at Lizzie. This girl was going to take her life with me, scars and anger this girl was an angle, nothing could get in her way, that was true bravery.. I walked away.. Back to that house.. I got to the neighborhood and saw the fire.. My house.. "Fuck!" I screamed as I broke into a run. I ran faster then I ever could. "NO! My family is in there!!" I said as I ran. The ambulance team had a women on the stretcher. "Mam... No.." I said as more tears slipped out of my eyes. He was right.. He was going to kill her before she could leave.. "House is clear." One of the people said.. Shannon.. Ollie.. Tadgh.. Sean! "It's not clear!!! My siblings are still in there!!" I screamed, I climbed over the caution tape and ran inside. "It's not safe in there kid! Nobody else is in there!" A fireman said, "No! My sister and brothers are in that house!! Get off me!!" I screamed and yelled. "No one is there son!" He said again and he brought me away from the house. "NO!" I yelled and broke down.. "Joey?!" A voice was heard.. "Mammy..." I said as I cried as I saw her burnt hand out of the bag, still wearing that damn ring... "I got them out Joey!" Johnny said as he wrapped his arms around me.. "No.. They are still in there... I left them! I fucking Left them!.... I left and didn't come back! It's all my fault!!" I screamed.. Johnny hugged me tighter.. "They aren't in there, lad.. I got them out.. They are at my house, sleeping.." Johnny said as he hugged me. "You have them.." I whispered as more tears streamed down my face. "Yes, Joey. They are safe.." Johnny replied...  My world came crashing down.. I should've fucking stayed.. I knew he was going to kill her before she could leave, he would've dragged everyone in that house with him!...

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   I walked into the Kavanagh's house and was met with the familiar blonde. "Oh, pet." Edel said as she engulfed me in a hug. I didn't feel anything.. I felt numb to the bone.. I lost the girl I loved and I lost my mother... I felt nothing at all.. My body trembled.. I smelt like fire and I felt hopeless.. "It's okay, Joey.." Edel said as she rubbed my back in a comforting manner. "Go upstairs, pet. You're room is straight down the hall, pet.." Edel said as she let go of me.. I looked at her and then went up the stairs and to the room. I sat down on the bed rocking back and fourth... I needed to fucking stay.. It's my fault.. I should've stayed!! Tears streamed my face as I rocked back and fourth.. Loosing myself piece by piece....