The sudden realization of me moving has hit me like a truck, the knowledge of how things will never be the same with me and my friends. things are already changing, me and my friends have started to talk less, I've started to miss them less, and I want to go back to my home town less. It's becoming to just be my past, like I don't care now what happens it's just a memory now. I went to saying I'll never stop texting you to a final good bye. It barely bothers me now like I could care less. I don't know how they feel but I feel like they feel the same way that I do, they they have started to text less and it's like they forget I'm even in there contacts, list and yes I feel sad. But I don't feel regret there is probably, only one person that still texts, calls, and FaceTimes me on a regular basis. They are the person that I can't ever let go of, they are my happiness, they actually earned the title best friend. I'm becoming less and less attached to my old life. sometimes I just want to leave it all/them behind and never look back but I wonder why I feel this why. Why I just want to abandon them, is it because it's easier to cope this way, or am I just to depressed to even deal with it at all? I will never understand the human psyche, but if I could I would never question anything someone does, but I would still question my self...
----sorry I have not posted in an long time __Emma
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AcakJust random junk I think of in my daily life The goal is to make you think about the chapter the entire day and really read between the lines of life now enjoy my book and just give it a chance
