Pheromone-less

Ch 30

JAEHAN POV

I flinched everytime i heard a loud sound from his room. I didn't feel like to check what happened there, i also have so many thoughts right now.

To make it worse i can't discussed it with anyone. I can't ask for an advices from my friends or my families. It was something i need to think by myself, to solve by my own.

But why i feel a heaviness inside my deepest heart to accept this new information. Isn't it good for us to be mated? No! I don't feel dissatisfied or upset, i just feel i can't take this matter as it was, somehow i can't just accepted this new fate.

It didn't feel wrong, but wasn't seat right either. It was to sudden. I live my life as a mate-less for a long time, and the fact that yechan noticed and knowledge my pheromone wasn't something i expected to be happen. What would happen to us now? No! How should i act from now on?

I shake my head, i can't sort my thoughts no matter how hard i tried. Question after question gradually come. It pointless. It's been hours, and i can't reach any conclusion or decision. He's the only one i could ask for advice and discuss about this matter. I take my phone, looking for his name.

"Hello babe, if you want to ask about hyuta, he's fine, he's been act like a host, treat everyone professionally"

"Can you find some quite place" He's quite for a moment, he know something concerned and bothered me.

"Wait a little" So I did.

"You can talk now" After a couple minutes, sebin hyung's voice back.

"Hyung, do you remember i once told you about how my pheromone smelled?"

"Lilac and ocean" Come his calm answer. I take a minute to sync my breath. He didn't said anything further.

"Yechan mentioned those smell" No response from him, i didn't escalate it either.

"Did you feel happy?" He ask. His voice sounds Careful

"I think"

"Did you hated it"

"Not really"

"Jaehan. Can you give me a certain answer" I stunned. Did i sound hesitated?

"Do you happy" He repeats his question.

"There's a joy and happy feeling inside my heart"

"That's mean you're in denial and confusion right now" I loss my speaking ability after hearing him. Did I?

"Are there's a dissatisfied even just a dot in your mind?" I frown. Tries to think and understand my own feeling.

"No"

"Are you hate the idea to be mated?" I widening my eyes. That's it, i hate the idea of mated because i want to spent the rest of my life with him and hyuta.

"I used to" I give him my answer. I heard he laugh lightly.

"Used mean you change your thought now right?" I nod, even though he can't see me.

"Thanks hyung. I'm glad i was born as your no.1 I'm glad you always right"

"No! Thanks for always make me the first person you thinking about everytime you feel bothered and concerned"

"You're my first warrior, my first hero, my first love" I smile to myself. I can hear him chuckle.

"So what's your reaction when he mentioned it?" I close my eyes. I bet i just gave him a bad impression by how i reacted.