Jealous • A Bang Chan FF

Chapter Fourteen: Clouds

~ YUJIN'S POV ~

We shuffled forward in line as the flight attendants started calling out our boarding group. We boarded the plane, and I let the others walk ahead as I lingered for a moment. I could feel Chan looking back at me, waiting. Taking a deep breath, I followed him down the aisle.

I wasn't sure if I was ready to "talk". Not that I didn't forgive Chan, I did, but because I just hated awkward conversations. I hated talking about feelings.

As we reached our row, Chan slid into his business class seat, and I hesitated for a second before sitting down. I could feel Chan glancing at me every now and then, probably waiting for me to say something.

After what felt like an eternity, Chan finally spoke, his voice soft. "Yujin... we need to talk."

I swallowed hard, my heart picking up speed. "I know," I responded, not really sure how to start. I desperately wanted to go with Lee Know.

He turned his body slightly to face me, his expression serious. "I just want to say, I'm really sorry. I don't expect you to forgive me, but I just want you to know that."

I nodded, glancing down at my hands, fidgeting with my fingers. I wasn't sure how to respond. I didn't even know how I really felt anymore.

"I forgive you, Chan it's just..." I started, trying to find the write words. "You've been off lately. We've been off."

He leaned back, staring up at the plane ceiling for a moment, almost like he was gathering his thoughts. "I'm sorry for that. I know it's all me. I just, I really want you Yujin. I want to be yours."

His words made me pause. I looked at him, a little surprised even though he had already said something like that already. "Chan..." I whispered, not really sure what to say. It wasn't like I hadn't thought about it before, about us. I clearly have. But I don't know...

Maybe it's V? I think I really like Taehyung and it felt like we were going somewhere. But Chan... Chan does something to me. Something I can't quiet warp my finger around.

He sat up straighter, turning fully to face me now. "I know I've been distant and cold and... maybe even a little 'possessive' but I just... I didn't know how to handle what I was feeling. I think it started when..." he paused. "We we're playing truth or dare. When we kissed or when I saw you kissing Felix I just..." he trails off.

The plane started to taxi down the runway, I leaned back in my seat. We had both ignored the safety announcements.

"And every time I saw you or heard about you with Taehyung, I got... I don't know. Jealous, I guess." He looks down.

Before this mess I never thought Chan would be the jealous type. He's always been so composed, so in control. But lately that hasn't been true at all.

"Chan, I need you to know that I like him," I said softly, even though I wasn't entirely sure about my own feelings. But I felt like confessing about V would be the safer option, than starting something new and complicated with Chan.

"You and I have something more, Yujin," Chan said, leaning in a little closer, his voice more serious. "I don't know what's going on between you and Tae, and honestly, I don't care."

There it is. That tone. That's the Chan I know.

"Chan I—"