Disabled I YM

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Aaaaa did y'all see Jin's live? He looked so cute 🥹

Jimins pov:

Yoongi pulls away after a little while. He is panting and I'm too. His hair is messy and cute. It's so cute I feel like dying. Shyly I lean over and give both of his cheeks a peck before daring to look into his eyes. His eyes is a little blank. They are staring into mine. Those irises make me do stuff..I- could stare into those eyes forever. But as the shy boy I am, I look down instead.

"Was that...okay?" Yoongi asks me. I look up again. His eyes are calming me down. "Mhm.." Yoongi takes my hands and holds them. I dig my head into his neck again and feel myself relaxing. I am so sleepy....

Yoongis pov:

My whole head is spinning with Jimin in it. Unfortunaly I didn't get to see him much today, another employee helped me with the clothes.

I really don't know how I feel about him. I think he's cute and kind and all that...but...do I like him? No. I will never fall in love with anyone again. Also...I'm not gay! Jimin is a guy. I don't like boys. I mean, everyone I've ever liked before is a girl. Besides, it doesn't feel like I'm in love with Jimin. I think it's hard to remember when you haven't liked someone for a long time. But I'm sure I don't like him. I mean, you can think someone is handsome even if you don't like the person. For example, the first few times I met Hoseok I thought he was really handsome. I seriously had a girlfriend at the time, but I still thought he was good looking. That must be how I feel about Jimin.

But...kissing him. It felt...amazing. I can't describe the feeling of kissing someone who isn't experienced. It feels like robbing their virginity and I LOVE it. It's not that I love Jimin, more that I love the feeling of being his first time. How he didn't know what he was doing at first, but that he gradually started moving his lips and then kissing back. It felt so great. I really missed kissing.

But it HAS to stop. That was a one time thing. I'll just carry on as usual with Jimin. Just no kissing. Not continuing as usual wouldn't be an option. I don't think I can survive without seeing his sweet smile and cuddling him again.

Feeling heavy, I sink onto the mattress. My hands clench on my stomach. The gaze is directed up at the ceiling, towards the sky. Quietly, I start talking to Jisoo.

"Goodnight darling. Sorry for what I did today. I have no idea what I was doing. Why did I kiss Jimin? I regret it. Please Jisie, forgive me. Nothing more will happen. I'm yours, forever. Now and always."

Jimins pov:

The next day, during the evening I find Yoongi and his friends sitting in the living room, laughing loudly. I peak thru the doorway and starts feeling deja vù. It's exacly like the last time they were here. Yoongi, Hoseok, Namjoon, Taehyung, Jungkook and even...Jin? That's kinda weird that Yoongi invited my friend but not me. But nevermind, they are all sitting on the floor like last time, beers and red cup everywhere. They all look so happy and I feel the need to join.

I invite myself and walk in. "You want a beer Jiminie?" Jin asks me.
"Nope he won't." Yoongi interupts me when I try to say something.
"Since when do you get to decide for him?" Taehyung challenges him.
"Jiminie, want one?" Hoseok adds. I nod and give Yoongi a bitch look.

A beer can ends up in my hand. I open it and immediately take a sip. It's strong beer, you can tell right away. I don't really think it's good, but I'd like to get a little drunk. It feels like I've had so much crap lately. When you're drunk, all that sort of thing disappears and you're happy. Jesus, now I sound like an alcoholic. That's not what I mean.

"So Jimin, what's really going on? How were you assaulted?" Taehyung asks.

The alcohol must have already started rushing through my veins because the answer comes so easily. These are topics I've never even talked to Yoongi about but now it feels like everything just wants out.

"There was a man who followed me. Since it was raining and he was only wearing a suit, I thought it seemed mysterious and creepy. So I simply ran in a circle. He followed me all the way and then jumped on me. I tried to get away but he was much bigger and stronger than me." I answer. It feels a bit hard to talk about, but these people are my friends and I remind myself that they care for me.

"Haha little Jimin at 173 cm!!" Jin starts laughing at me.

"Haha then you're shorter than Yoongi!" Hoseok teases and throws an empty cup at Yoongis face.

"How tall is he?" I ask.

"174" Yoongi looks down.

"It's only by 1 cm!" I scream at him.

"Look! Now you are the baby!" Hoseok starts laughing like crazy and spits beer everywhere. Kinda gross actually.

Everyone starts laughing like crazy at me. I actually think it's fun but also a bit uncomfortable when so many people are watching.

"I'm not the baby! I can't possibly be the youngest!" I shriek.

"You're not, Jungkook is" Taehyung tells me.

"You know Jk pretty well don't you." Hoseok points out.

"Keep your dick in your pants." He says back.

"WTF! Everyone can see how you practically drool over him! Get a room!" Hoseok roasts back.

"I don't!"

"Yeah!" Everyone agrees and teases Tae.

Taehyung blushes and turns around. He tries to look sad but everyone can see the smile he's trying to hide.

About one and a half hour later

The whole room is spinning. When I look at Hoseok, he has four eyes. His mouth hangs upside down. It looks really funny. I'm dying! My laughter bubbles up from my chest. I get up to get to him but am stopped.

"Jimina, stop. Come, let's go to bed." Yoongi interups the fun.

"Meeeh! The clock isn't even eeeevening!" I whine. "It sure is."

He takes my hand and starts to roll away while dragging me with him. I don't want to. I want to stay in this spinning room. Like a carousel.

"I waaant to stay here!" I continue whining. "Come on Jimin!"

I let myself be dragged to my room. It feels like I'm in a washing machine. Especially the squirrels playing around on the walls are funny. I would laugh if I wasn't so sick. When I feel the vomit in my throat, I start to run, but don't make it. I throw up straight over Suga's nice carpet.

" Sorry!" I cry out.

"No worries Chim. My cleaner will fix it. Just come now so we can tuck you in." Yongi says again.

"Can I sleep with you?" I whine.

"Nope. I'm going out to the boys again."

"Buuut I want too! I want to kiss you agaaain!" "No. Nothing more like that.""Why? Am I not cute enough?""Yes. You are very cute. It's just...ugh. No more just kisses." Yoongi says. "Can I have a kiss on the cheek, please?" I whine back."Guess so." Finally Yoongi gives in.

When he leans forward with pursed lips, I take my chance. I turn my head just before his lips touch my cheek. Instead, our lips meet. His eyes widen in surprise, but he doesn't pull away. Instead he immediately starts kissing me. A wet tongue is pushed into my mouth and begins to explore.

Finally. I kiss Yoongi again.

(Hello! This chapter was kinda hard to write. First, I had to delete so many parts that were unnessecary. Then, my nice teacher called me in to talk to her BEFORE a meeting with my dad and her. I had a mental breakdown and started crying. I don't even know why, it's just that I haven't had anyone ask how I was doing and how I was feeling for so long. Maybe I am not feeling as good as I thought I was. I feel like I've hidden it from myself. Well...So now I'm sitting in school and I'm sure everyone can see that I've cried. xoxo Ellie)