Disabled I YM

18

Happy birthday Jiminie 🎉🎂🥳 I LOVE you so much! Your are such a wonderful person and a great inspiration for me, and all other army's. I wish you all the best in the army and hope you are doing well. Maybe you are even celebrated by the other soldiers. Hope so. I love you Jimin ❤️

Yoongis pov:

When his plump lips meet mine I can't resist anymore. The whole day I tried to hide my boner from him, not wanting to expose myself. But I can't resist anymore. He taste way to good and is way to good. My lips are automatically starting to kiss his. It's something about his lips that drives me crazy. Maybe how bouncy they are or how great they taste. Like vanilla. I saw him use some lipgloss earlier and that's probably why.

After a while I manage to control myself enough to pull away.

"Jimin...what are you doing?" I press out.
"Kissing you...can I get one more please" Jimin whines.
"No Jimin. We have to stop this. We are friends, right?"
"But I wanna be your boooyfriend...."

What the hell? Help. What is he babbling about? Does he really like me? You tend to be more honest when you're drunk. Is that who he is now or is he kidding? What if he likes me? Like...in love with me? For real? He can't be serious. Now he's just drunk. Hes cute, yes. I admit that. I also admit that my stomach tickles when I think about whether he would like me. I admit I would like it. But it doesn't matter. I've made a promise. I will be faithful to Jisoo.

"No Jimin...you're just drunk. You don't mean this. Now get on the bed so we can put you to sleep" I decide.

He strips all his clothes without a second thought about me watching. He's standing there in just boxers. I can't help but stare at those abs. The shining skin. And you can clearly see his toned stomach, abs forming under the belly. His arms looks strong and his thighs...they're perfect. I would love to sit inbetween them and lick a long stripe upwards til I reach his-

Wait....! Yoongi!!! What the fuck are you thinking about?! Drop that shit NOW!

Jimin slides down his sheets and I give his hand a press before rolling into the living room again. I have to continue partying with my guys.

Later that night, a maid helped me get in bed. It's been a long day and sleep comes easily.

"Yoongs! Hi!"

"Jisoo? It's you!"

"You look so happy! How are you darling?"

"I am happy. How are you?"

"I'm super happy. Yoongs, you don't have too wait for me. I can see how you feel for Jimin. You can like him. I want you too."

"B-but J-jisoo, it's suppose to be us."

"It''s still gonna be us. But I'm not on earth anymore. We will meet in the sky again. But until then, take care of Jimin for me. He needs it."

"But I'm not gay."

"Why not?"

"Because I love you."

"I love you too. You can love both me and Jimin. There are people who like both genders. Maybe you are one of them. That's completely fine. I want you to love Jimin."

"But Jisie, you are the one I love. You have the single place in my heart."

"But Yoongs, I see you and him. How you look at him. How your body reacts. That's okay. You have waited for me over nine years. Now it's time to let go. Let Jimin enter your heart. I would love to share your heart with him. He's a beautiful man."

"He is...but...is he right for me?"

"I don't know. Do what feels right. I will support you thru whatever. We will meet again after life. Now, live life. You are free."

I flinch and sit up in my bed. My head feels clear and there's only one thought circling my head. I am free. Jisoo gave me permission. I can love Jimin now. Or atleast like. I am free.

(Hello! Here's a Yoongi who's starting to get free from PTSD. Maybe not yet, but in a while, he will have the courage to search help. xoxo Ellie)