The Scarred

Chapter 1

The bitter morning cold was relentless against her skin, encouraging her to attempt to tuck her face further into her coat. It was moments like these where she was thankful for the bandages as they kept half of her face warm. Cars and buses alike filled the streets during the rush hour, jaywalkers slipping between them when the chance presented itself to involve themselves in the madness. She shook her head to herself, hand reaching up to open the door to a petite shop with a 'ding'. It was warmer, even somewhat humid. The smells of different flowers and herbals were dominating. She walked behind the small wooden counter to set down her shoulder bag, hearing faint rustling from the back room of the shop.

"Penny? That you?" A woman's voice floated over. Footsteps grew louder as they entered the front of the shop until a head of brunette hair poked out. "Hey, you!" She chirped with a bright smile while the other just returned it with tight lips. She walked over to where Penelope now sat down, pencil and journal on the counter in front of her. The woman's figure practically towered over her because of her poor posture that would surely cause problems in the near future. "Long time no see, stranger." She jested, gently elbowing her side.

"You saw me yesterday, you goof." Penelope practically mumbled, attempting to bite back a smile.

"Still too long." The woman ruffled her hair, giggling as she watched her scramble to fix it once she pulled away. She disappeared to the back once more and Penelope picked up her pencil, beginning to jot down some notes as the brunette reentered with a small vase of assorted flowers. "Lunch is on me today, by the way." She started to touch up the flowers to her liking. Penelope furrowed her brow at her, mouth moving to question her friend before she was cut off. "There's a food truck just down the street I thought we should try. It's mostly sandwiches, but I'm sure they have other things, too." She looked up and smiled at the younger woman who gazed at her with a doe eye.

"Um -" She gazed nervously at the floor before looking back up at her. "Thank you?"

"You're welcome." The woman laughed and went around the room to reorganize other vases and pots. It was quiet for a few moments, the sounds of pencil scratching on paper and her friend's footsteps adding to the peacefulness. The outside streets were muffled in the background and Penelope relished in the calming atmosphere, the ghost of a smile gracing her face. It was soon washed away when a thought reached out to her, buzzing in her head. She started to chew on her cheek.

"Emma?" Penelope asked softly, breaking the silence.

"Yes, hun?" The woman's chirpiness had died down slightly, sensing the more serious tone in the woman's voice.

"Do I -" She started, pausing to take a deep breath and collect her thoughts. She started to regret her decision of bringing it up, but decided that she now had to commit to it. "Do I have... habits?" It seemed the roles had been reversed, for now Emma was the one furrowing her eyebrows.

"I mean, everyone has habits, hun." She looked at her friend's face and immediately noticed the racing thoughts just from her eye, sighing once she did. "Penny, is this about your therapy?" Her voice took on a motherly tone and she slowly made her way over to Penelope who just nodded her head. "I don't understand why you even visit her, still." Her arm wrapped around Penelope's shoulders, her hand rubbing the farther one in small circles. "All they do is pocket your money for hearing your life's story and feed you bullshit."

"I'm just too scared to stop visiting."

"Why, because it'll break your routine?" Emma leaned on the counter with her elbow, eyebrows raised.

"She knows the most and I'm scared to break that tie because of how much she knows." Her large eye finally looked up to Emma, filled with desperation and fear. "What if she uses it against me somehow? Or tells someone else and then they use it against me? What -"

"Penny." Her mouth snapped shut and her gaze cast down to the floor once more. "Not only are your conversations confidential, but - and I don't mean this in a rude way - what would be so special about you that would make her spill your life's story to someone?"

With candlelit faces, the two of them laughed. The younger woman's eyes were glazed over with joy as her mother presented the cake in the dark room.

The soothing ambience of the soft music and boiling water in the background was a stark contrast compared to her raging thoughts. She made her way to the fridge, opening the freezer to pull out a bag of tortellini.

As thick smoke started to crowd the room, accompanied by distant screams, they stared at each other. Now both of their eyes were glazed, yet it held an entirely different meaning.

After having ripped the bag open with her teeth, Penelope warily poured the frozen pasta into the water, standing as far away as possible to avoid being splashed. As she waited for them to be ready she grabbed a jar of pesto from the fridge, then a larger bowl and olive oil from the cupboard.

"Penny -" She was cut off by her own coughing. "The window - open the window!"

Lightly sucking on the inside of her bleeding cheek, she brought the pot over to the strainer that had been placed in the sink. She leaned away from the steam as she poured in the pasta and water, setting the pot aside when finished. The bowl was brought over for the pasta to be transferred.

Even through the overwhelming pain, she maintained eye contact with her daughter for reassurance. She noticed the way she apprehensively glanced out of the window. "It'll be okay, sweetheart."

The sound of glass shattering filled the still air of the room. Having now sat down on the floor against the counter she let her head fall back with a light 'thud', taking shaky breaths as she tried to ground herself. Suddenly, she cried out to the nothingness in front of her, not a yell or a scream. The noise had found the perfect middle ground as she trembled.

Penelope wasn't sure how long it had been. Hours, minutes, maybe even only seconds. Her legs were laid out in front of her now, head hung low with a gentle sniff every now and then. Her dinner had been long forgotten. She had lost her appetite. She looked over to where the small bowl had been thrown, white chunks scattered below where it hit the wall. Thankfully the wall was fine save for some scratched paint.

She begrudgingly pushed herself from the floor to cover the bowl with the pasta and put it in the fridge. Exhausted, she left the glass where it was, deciding to just clean it up after work the next day. With a soft 'click' her bedroom glowed with warm light and she trudged over to the small bathroom. Just as she was about to start her normal routine, however, she caught something out of the corner of her eye. It was small, barely noticeable as it blended with the egg-white countertop. The lined paper had some chicken scratch on it and she strained her eye to read it, yet when she could finally make out the words her heart dropped.

Don't forget to smile.