I LOST HER || SAD JK FF ✔️

18: Just want to end the pain

The accident took place 4 days ago, Taehyung is still in a coma..and you had a minor fracture in your wrist. Jungkook has been ignoring you ever since that accident.

All of you had returned back to Korea because Dr. Ju is the best doctor, globally who treats in Seoul International Hospital and thus Taehyung was admitted there.

Karina didn't even glance at you, she would visit Taehyung, talk to him for hours and cry, she would barely eat. It's not like she hates you but she needs time to process everything. She requested you to not approach Taehyung for a few days until her emotions calm down.

You were utterly devastated with everything happening in your life, Soha was the one taking care of you in the mansion. Jungkook was living with Jimin as he didn't want to look at your face and it hurt you.

Soha would be the one to cook food for you and feed you, even if you refused to eat she fed you the food as you would cry in her arms at times and she would calm you down.

One day, you locked yourself in your room as you were crying hard, you couldn't bear this pain and agony anymore as you grabbed your phone and dialled a number as that person immediately picked up your call.

“Hello Yn? How's your marriage life? You forgot about me after marriage did-”

“Sana shi..” You said while sobbing as she paused, she was hella worried as she hasn't heard from you after marriage. Did the marriage backfire?

“Y-yah Yn ah...what happened?” she asked as you hiccuped while sobbing hard as you told her the whole story as Sana was in shock.

“Yn-ah it's not your fault... It's none of your fault ok? J-just don't blame yourself honey..you heard me?” she said trying to soothe you as you hesitantly nod while crying, “Yn..I am in Jeju right now.. I will coming tomorrow night, just stay strong ok? I will visit you day after tomorrow...hmm?” she said as you hummed.

“t-thank you sana.” you said as Sana was heartbroken as she nods, “don't worry...I will visit soon..bye hon.” she said as she hangs up.

***

You got out of your room as you wore a clean looking outfit as you grabbed your car keys as Soha furrows her brow, “Where are you going Unnie?” she asks as you gave her a weak smile.

“To cafe..to calm my mind.” you said as Soha slowly nods her head, “call me if you need anything ok?” Soha said as you nod at her, “I will..thank you Soha..” you said as you went out of the house.

***

Well you lied to Soha about going to the cafe as you went to the hospital and looked went to the receptionist,

“I have an appointment with Dr. Hwang.” you said as she checks the computer and nods, “Yes ma'am. Dr. Hwang is free, you can go visit him in room number 212” she said as you bowed and headed to room 212.

Upon reaching the room, you knocked softly on the door as you heard a gentle 'come in' as you entered the room.

“Good morning Doctor.” You said as Dr. Hwang looks at you and gestures you to sit, “Morning Mrs. Jeon...your reports are here.” He said as you took a seat as he took out a file.

“Well yesterday after the scan I got to know few things which might traumatize you so I need you to calm down.” He said as you got nervous but still nodded your head slowly.

“You said you didn't get your periods from the last 45 days and I did a check... It's not regarding Pregnancy” He said as you looked at him in shock,
“t-then?” you asked as he sighed.

“You bore a fall Mrs. Jeon, It affected your vagina, and well... You won't ever get your periods again... unfortunately, you've become i-infertile now.” He said as you gasped, your hands started to shiver slightly as you looked at the doctor.

“h-how is that p-possi-”

“It's possible Mrs. Jeon, a sperm had entered your system and was trying to fuse with the egg which you had produced but even before they could do so, you bore the fall and the placenta was damaged, so your Uterus is clogged forever... We can't do anything, I'm sorry.” he said as you teared up but managed not to cry as you gulped the lump and thanked the doctor while taking the reports and leaving the hospital.

***

It was raining heavily, you were drenched, tears staining your cheeks but you didn't care, you couldn't become a mother now? When you were at the verge of becoming one? Oh how badly that hurts.

Your mind was a mess, you couldn't think straight. You walked lifelessly as you didn't know where you were heading to, you just let yourself be dragged by your feet.

You don't know how but somehow you managed to reach your place as you just walked for a while and then looked at the dark house. Soha must've gone out..

You just went towards your room and locked the bedroom door as you entered the bathroom and locked the bathroom door also, you had no urge to live anymore... You just turned on the cold water as you sat under the cold shower and closed your eyes, you just wanted to end this pain once and for all.