A/N (I've added random names for their friend's names!)
Andy's POV
Me and Ethan walk into the house and it's covered in people. The smell of alcohol fills the air as we make our way to the living room.
The music is blaring through the multiple speakers that line the room. People are dancing around leaving small amounts of room for us to walk through. We make our way to the kitchen and grab drinks. Two of our friends come up to us grabbing our attention independently.
I get dragged away as does Ethan. I end up outside by the pool that is just as crowed as the house. Me and Liz sit a few feet away from the pool on catch up.
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Ethan's POV
Jacks pulls me away separating me from Andy. We head to the game room which is luckily quieter than the rest of the house.
Jack~ "dude I'm so happy you showed up! I know parties aren't really your thing. Hopefully what I'm about to show you will change your mind"
I watch as Jack gets up and goes to a closet in the room. He leans down to pick something up and then turns around to show me.
No fucking way.
"JACK! Where the hell did you get this?"
Jack laughs at my reaction and comes to sit down next to me so I can check it out.
I pick up the most beautiful and expensive guitar to ever exist.
Kurt Cobain's Martin D-18E
"Jack is this the real thing?"
"It's one thousand percent the real thing"
"How the hell did you get this?"
"It was on auction. I somehow managed to be the highest bidder"
I drop my head knowing Jack spent an unbelievable amount on this instrument
"How much did you spend on this, Jack?"
"If I tell you you might stroke out"
"That much huh" I say looking at him
"I'm afraid so..."
"Jesus"
"Wanna play it?" Jack asks me
"Are you serious?"
"Well you know I can't play it, I was just gonna hang it up"
"Oh right I forgot you can't play. But you could always learn"
"Yeah...no, I tuned it earlier so it should be good to go"
"I guess I gotta play a nirvana song. Which one?"
"Smells like teen spirit of course"
I get comfortable and start playing the song.
A few minutes go by and people start crowding the room. I feel electric that people are enjoying me play but my anxiety doesn't.
I stop mid song and feel my body instantly warm. Goosebumps cover my arms and legs. I look over at Jack and he has confusion plastered on his face. I swallow trying to cure the cotton mouth I have but it only makes it worse.
I lift my head to look around the room and everyone is blurry. It's not just the people though it's...everything. Everything lost its shape.
"Ethan" I hear next to me. I turn and Jacks face is turned to worry. He reaches over and removes the guitar from my lap. "Ethan are you okay? What's happening?"
I open my mouth to speak by only shutters come out. Shit I'm having a panic attack.
I feel a hand on my back just as Jack speaks "Ethan you're shaking"
"A- An-
I need my boyfriend. Someone get my boyfriend. I wanted to scream that but words don't exist right now.
"Okay, it's okay."
Jack stands up and tells everyone to leave the room "everyone out! Ethan seems to be sick.
If you don't wanna see him throw up please leave" everyone runs out of the room and Jack shuts the door
"Sorry I lied. I just didn't think you'd want me to tell people that you're having a panic attack"
He knows...
"I've had them before, I'm so stupid for not realizing earlier. Everyone crowding in here was too much. I'm sorry"
It's not his fault but, I can't tell him that right now. Please Jack, please get Andy.
"I don't know what to do. What should I do?" He says pacing
I watch him through my blurred vision and shaking hands.
"An- And-
"And?" He says confused until he finally understands "ANDY oh my god I'm in idiot. Okay I'll get them don't move"
Jack leaves the room and tears fall from my eyes as I blink.
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Andy's POV
"ANDY" I hear behind me. I turn around and see Jack running towards me frantically.
"Jack? What's wrong?"
"It's Ethan, I think he's having a panic attack"
My heart climbs up my throat. I drop my drink and follow behind Jack as he leads me to Ethan.
Once I get to the room Jack shuts the door and leaves us alone.
"Baby, what happened?"
I take a few steps closer and sit down next to Ethan.
"I- was- I"
"Okay, it's okay. You don't have to talk. Just remember your breathing exercises"
Tears drip off his face on onto his pants leaving dark stains. I place my hands on his face and get him to face me. "Just look at me okay?"
I drop my hands to his and place them on my chest. Still shaking I keep my hands on top of his to keep them steady.
"Close your eyes" he does as I say "good, now with your hands feel my chest rise and fall"
I take a deep breath in and then exhale, making sure my chest exaggerates so he can feel it.
"Okay now do it with me" I place one of my hands on his chest and he takes a deep breath in as do I. We fall in sync until Ethan opens his eyes.
His heart rate slows as does the shakiness on his lips. I let my shoulders fall in relief that his panic attack has subsided.
I'm terrified when he goes through these I can't even begin to imagine how he feels.
He looks relieved but exhausted from the moment. I lean forward and pull him to me wrapping my arms around him tightly. "Thank you" he says coherently whilst relaxing in my arms.
"Always, my love"
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And thank you all for reading and commenting such nice words. I've been having the worst couple days recently due to my health and when reading what you're saying it makes my heart so happy, thank you so so much <33
