„a Sixer, please."

regrett and revenge

POV Dipper

„Stanford! Stanford wake up!", I heard Bill beg, gently shaking my Grunkel.

I knew Bill was seriously scared for him. He wouldn't call Ford by his actual name otherwise.

I felt how my throat goes dry while my eyes just kept on getting more teared up.

I slowly crawled out of my hiding spot.
As Mabel saw me she directly ran to me and nearly knocked me over.

„Dipper! We were so worried about you!", she said with teary eyes.
And I felt so guilty. Not only did I make my family worried about me, I was the one who caused all this.

I gently pushed Mabel away and stepped closer to to Bill and Ford with widened eyes and shaky breaths.

Bill kept on whispering to Ford trying his best to wake the man up.

„Is he...is he...-", I tried to ask with my shaky voice, but I just couldn't manage to say it.
I couldn't manage it if he died because of me.

Stan came up looking as worried as us all and kneeled down beside Bill, and tried too feel Fords heart beat.
„He is there, but it's weak", he said trying to sound though, but we all knew that Stan is scared for his brother.

„We need to get to a hospital!", Mabel said with tears now rolling down her cheeks.

„We can't. We couldn't explain these wounds to the hospital staff, and if anyone finds out that something strange happened here you guys will be under the FBIs radar again.", Bill explained, holding Ford close as if he was trying to warm Fords body up with his own.

„But then what are we gonna do?! He needs help right now!", Mabel sobs.

„I know that Sixer has medicine against Zombie blood. That will help for now.", Bill said while caressing Fords cheeks softly.

He really did care about my grunkel...I thought it was manipulation of him but now...
I'm horrible.

Bill tried to stand up and pulling Ford with him in his arms, but the demon seemed to be weaken out by his power.

„Let me do it kid", Stan said and picked his twin up.
Bill didn't even fought against Stan calling him kid. To be honest I never saw Bill being this serious.

The two made their way into the shack with Ford and me and Mabel followed him.

We made it to the vending machine and as we wanted to step in we got unfamiliar gently pushed out be Bill.
„Don't. I'm sure Sixer doesn't want you two to see him in his current stage.", Bill said.
We didn't start a discussion with the blonde.
We just saw of what he was capable of with his power and didn't wanted to fuel the fire again.

As the vending machine closed me and Mabel just stood there looking at it.
The silence was uncomfortable.

My mind was racing with a unbearable guilt.
Ford is in danger because of me.

And this stupid summoning thing didn't even helped me to give Bill some kind of punishment, it just made me releaise that Bill did indeed change.
He really tried his best to get better.
He did everything to save my family and it was probably exhausting for this human vessel the way he is on shaking legs, constantly breathing exhausted and the cracks that spread on his face.

Mabel put a hand on my shoulder.
„It's going to be alright. I'm sure of it", she smiled to me, but I saw in her eyes that she doesn't believe her own words.

„L-let's just distract ourselves. We can't do anything except waiting."
I nodded to her and together we went to the living room and tried to clean our minds with some tv.