this is a book from a girl named Kira she is a big fan of billie and she is in love with billie .
will she ever meet her or will she ever fight against her mental illness?
read this book so you can know
little sneak peak (wlw) hope you guys like th...
It was morning I was still billie's arms. She looked so peaceful. I don't know if I have feelings to her or not. Bus she is so hot. No I can't have feelings to a girl she is a fucking woman. We even have 3 years age difference. I know she is bi but still. She looks so happy with me. Then the thoughts came back
Cut It's for the best No one wants you Billie thinks you are fucking ugly She can't have mentally ill girlfriend She is gonna leave you
I can't help when the thought come. I wanna cry so I silently get up and walk to the bathroom. I lock the door. I feel the tears on my eyes. Ugh I can't help when they come. I cry about 10 minutes. Then billie knocks on the bathroom door. She speaks on a good soft raspy sleepy voice.
Hey are you okay there come out I wanna give you a hug I know you are crying Kira.
I feel panic. She can't see me cry. I look so ugly when I cry. But I can't just ignore her she is probably gonna break the door if I don't come out. I came out and feel billie's arms on me. She hugs me tightly and soft. She keeps me warm.
Don't worry I won't judge you can cry.
She says in raspy sweet voice. OmgI am gonna die if she don't shut the fuck up. So I end up crying in her arms. She smells so good. Her hair smells like coconuts and flowers. And she. She doesn't smells sweaty. She smells heaven. Like vanilla and something else I can't really smell. But what perfume she even uses. Maybe her own ones. Well I don't care. All I want to be on her arms. She has a cute big t shirt.
(Image billie looks like this at the morning) (idk if you guys see it)
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Thanks billie.
I say. She squeeze me tighter to her. Then finneas comes to my room. He smiles.
Hey the breakfast is ready soon.
He says. He has the kindest voice too.
Yeah we are coming.
Billie says. We walk to the kitchen. I am really anxious. The voices says me everytime I even look food.
Don't do it You are fat already You don't need the food
I sit to the table with finneas Claudia and billie. Billie looks at me. She smiles and takes the salad. I take the salad too. But really really tiny bit. I look at the food. It looks yummy but it feels wrong.
You can do it. Can you eat half of it just for me?
