Real Me

His Side

Austin

She's my everything. She's definitely my last. But I don't think she'll accept me for who I really am.

She thinks I'm a badboy who doesn't do illegal things and can be change by love. Just by looking at my physical appearance and basing my qualities on books and movies, she easily decided who I am.

We've been friends since junior year. Brenner's our dearest and manipulative best friend. He set up our first meeting. Let's just say it wasn't nice.

I know she's thinking that she's the only one loving or for my disappointment, liking. But that's totally untrue. I don't anymore like her because I already love her and in fact I was the first. It's hard at first fighting your feelings. But once you surrender, everything's worth it.

I knew from the very start that she was the one who brings me cookies. I knew at first that she handled them to Brenner to put it inside my locker. Her actions were really funny, but I love when she's like that. I love everything about her. Brenner informed me about this to know if I'm okay with this. Well at that time I just said, "It's better than okay! No, scratch that. It's the best than okay. And tell her my locker password. I want her to deliver it there personally not you who might finish it all." I knew my grammar was wrong but it was really more than okay. No! The best than okay. Ugh, until now my mind is twisting when It's all about her. I'm really dead.

She really makes me happy, unleashes the true me. But I gotta let her know first the real me.

I finally gathered all the courage that I had and said some truth to her. That I like her. Actually I already love her, but I chose to take this slow for her.

She ran away from me and I wanted to chase her but I had to give her time to think. Besides, I knew where she'll go.

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Our school is surrounded by tall trees. She loves nature and there's this big tree with a lot of branches where she can sat and climbed easily. It couldn't be found easily that's why she loves hanging out there.

I called Brenner for backup and he said he was on his way here. I went to this tree as fast as I can before she arrived by taking a short cut she did't know. I climbed up and waited for her. I just wanted to make sure she won't do something stupid. She finally arrived and leaned her back to the tree. She took out her phone and called Brenner to come here, and I doubt she waited for his reply. She returned it into her pocket and sat down.

Ten minutes had passed and I was just observing her from above when Brenner found her. "Hey." he said. " Did you know he likes me?" that was too straight-forward.

" Yes, of course I'm both your best friend,0 so I know all your secrets. I just wondered on how come you didn't knew each other's secrets. What happened?" he went to her and sat beside her.

"He confessed that he likes me." they kept silent for a while until she broke it.

"After all this time..... he likes me. Why Brenner? I mean, it's not that I don't want him to like me back but why do I feel...."

"You feel what?"

"I don't know what I'm going to say. I like him a lot but I don't know if I'm going to be happy or sad. I'm really thankful that he likes me."

"Be happy. whatever problem you have there just be happy and enjoy the ride." she laughed. I love her laugh.

"You still want to go to school? We could just grab coffee and stroll at the park."

"Thanks for the offer boyfriend but I'm just gonna grab coffee and I need to do some processing." I should be the one inviting her and her calling me boyfriend.

"Ouch. I got rejected. Come on." she laughed again with Brenner's dramatic action.

They started walking away I am still waiting for them to be out of sight when Brenner turns back and eyes me. I don't know what's the meaning of that eye. It looks like.... worrying?I really don't know.

I jumped off the tree and decided to just go home and plan my next move. I took a deep breath and mumbled to myself, "This is just the begining."