Hacked Hearts

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I am currently in the kitchen with my mother who was preparing food. Jimin who was in the living room with my brother were talking about interesting things. They were laughing, playing or even coming to see me. I am currently surprised and happy that Jimin did not make any remarks about the house he simply came he sat on the couch with my brother and talked together. My brother is so happy to be with him which makes me happy to see him smile so much. ''Noona! we agree I speak English well'' My brother says running towards me followed by Jimin who had his hands in his pockets with a smile.

'' Of course you speak English well I'm the one who taught you '' I tell him giving him a kiss on the cheek which makes him happy. He turns to Jimin and gives him a smile. "You see I told you I speak good English" My brother says and Jimin nods while touching his hair. "Noona your boyfriend is really funny" My brother says and I stop cutting the vegetables that were in front of me before looking up and looking at Jimin who had stopped laughing too.

I knew now my brother was not going to let go of him he was going to get attached to him and it was going to be difficult for me. "Dinner is ready!!" My mother calls us from the living room which saves me from this awkward atmosphere. I take the bowl that was in front of me and head towards the dining room first to escape from Jimin's intense gaze. I put the bowl on the table and see the two boys sit down on the table. ''Jimin I don't know what you like so I made Daegu traditions'' My mother said while putting the soup in Jimin's bowl who was waiting patiently I sat down in front of him since my mother had her place in front of my brother.

''Don't worry Mrs. Lee I eat everything.'' He said and took the bowl of soup before putting it in front of him. My mother sat down and we all started eating. My brother who was eating as usual as if he hadn't eaten for 10 years. Jimin who was eating slowly and who seemed to enjoy this moment and my mother who was looking at Jimin to see his facial expressions. After Jimin took a spoon he stopped and looked at the soup. I saw him close his eyes which worried me. He doesn't like it? I lightly tapped his leg with my foot which made him open his eyes and look at me. I give him a look like what's going on? I look into his eyes and see sadness?

He had tears in his eyes. "Thank you Mrs. Lee the soup is very good it reminded me of my grandmother" He says and smiles sadly which makes my heart sink. My mother smiles at this news and gives him the Gimbap she made in front of him. "Eat well Jimin, eat well" She says and Jimin smiles taking the gimbap and continued to drink his soup. It is at this moment that I understand that Jimin did not get love from his parents. He is attached to the things that make him happy. The boys who are his family and his grandmother who was his mother.

Happiness is not given by what you have but by who you are with. 

After finishing eating Jimin went to the garden with my brother and I went to help my mother wash the dishes. "Aera" My mother's voice brings me out of my thoughts. I look at her and she comes closer to me. "Try not to worry about us anymore. Enjoy your youth you're 23 you didn't even have a boyfriend or even friends just to be able to take care of us." She tells me and I turn off the water taking a deep breath before turning to her. "Mom you're wrong I'm enjoying my life look at me I'm with you I'm happy seeing you happy. And don't worry I have friends in Seoul I have a job I have a house and I can buy whatever I want. My goal is for you to come to Seoul in August." I tell her and she sits on the chair in front of me. 

"If only I could have been a mother capable of looking after my two children. I'm not even capable of buying Seungwoo a new phone. I don't know how to do anything except stay at home. If only your father hadn't left" She says and I feel her voice cracking telling me that she was going to cry. I get away from her and give her a hug. "Never say that you are the reason I get up every morning to go to work you are the reason I earn money. If my father is gone it is his problem but never underestimate yourself because you have a big place mom. I don't know what I would have done without you." I tell her and she hugs me back. I can't cry in front of my mother she won't be able to resist that and I won't be able to resist either.