Messy feelings, Messy decisions ♤JeongChan♤

Chapter two: Chan

It wasn't love at first sight but it was special in it own way. Jeongin admired Chan a lot and Chan find a muse in Jeongin. It never meant to be this special since they were only teammates. But they started to grow some feelings for each other to point where it was impossible to deny that they fell in love for each other. 
One date resulted in many other dates, one kiss became a thousand of kisses, holding hands and looking at each other lovingly became a standard between them. Chan would smile amorously to Jeongin who would shy away blushing so hard. Jeongin would be nervous besides Chan and would lose his words when he would want to tell Chan how much he loved him, but he would take care of his man, he would ask him out, buying him flowers, giving him so much love that Chan would start tear up. Chan would be confident when it came to shower Jeongin with love, he would sing for him, write poetry, being so vocal about how much he loved his boy. Chan would buy expensive things to Jeongin, he would privatize a whole restaurant in order to make Jeongin comfortable, he would act like a sugar daddy to make jeongin happy. They would easily and understandingly accept their different ways to show love to the other.

It was perfect. Almost perfect.

Chan and Jeongin lived happily and peacefully in their relationship, it would look like they never argue and they would do everything they can to avoid that. They were on  the same page for almost everything, even the fact that their realtion had to remain secret. But one thing was the principal cause of their disagreement: Chan's work.

Jeongin would feel like Chan's job came before him. It even came time where Chan would completely forget his boyfriend's existence. Jeongin would cry himself to sleep since Chan would not listen to him or understand him. Chan would say that he works to make Stray Kids greater and Jeongin would feel guilty to feel the way he feels.

It didn't take time before Jeongin began to think that Chan was seeing someone else. The oldest would stay late at the studio or just stay at the studio without notifying Jeongin. Jeongin would ask for some explanation and Chan would be so defensive about it. That's when the younger started to see Chan become closer and closer with their make-up artist. Jeongin was so jealous and hurt but above all that, he was feeling so much angst. He tried to be rational and not act based on angst but he was so blinded with his jealousy that he started to dig into Chan’s phone or track him. That's how he discovered that Chan would spend time with the make-up artist, both in her house or his studio and that's how Jeongin had find them in the studio kissing.

*♤♤*

Chan had been feeling unwell for a few days or weeks. He would sometimes feel dizzy or nauseated and then find himself vomiting his guts out. Occasionally, he would find himself regaining consciousness after passing out without realizing it. Although it was frightening for him, he didn't feel comfortable telling the members about his health problems.

And today was worse but luckily, he was alone in the studio. Changbin and Han had other schedules, it meant that they won't be there until tomorrow, and no other member was planning to come in the studio. So, he allowed himself to rest.
When getting up, he didn’t expect to be hit with a huge wave of dizziness which made him stumble and fall down. An excruciating pain spread in his wrist when falling but he didn’t have the strength to feel that pain, he just let himself lay down and closed his eyes. He wished Jeongin was there, he wished that the younger man was here holding him and telling him that it will be okay, that he didn't have a reason to be scared. He missed him horribly.

*♤♤*

When Chan returned home at past midnight, no one was waiting for him. That was good for him since he didn't want them to see him like this. It wasn't appealing and he was ashamed for his look. Besides that, his right hand hurt so much. He went straight to his bedroom. He achieved to change in more comfortable clothes. He also took painkillers and then went to sleep.