sweet lies | rafe cameron

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I ran to the first bathroom I could reach in the Cameron mansion. I locked the door and before I knew it I threw myself at the toilets and threw up most of the rum, some beer and a few shots of vodka.

"Disgusting" I mumbled as I helped myself get up. I looked at my reflection in the mirror and I let myself do something I haven't let myself do all week.
Cry.
The tears ran down my cheeks ruining my mascara.
"Great" I reached for a wipe to wash my face. "Hurry!" someone knocked on the door aggressively. "There's like a thousand bathrooms here let me live" I groaned and drank some water from the sink.

I then opened the door and two girls ran inside pushing me aside in the hall. "Watch it" I spat raising my eyebrows.

I gazed around the room crowded with drunk people and my eyes found Kelce. Not someone I wanted to see, but Kelce means Rafe close.
I froze a bit and made my way to him.

"Maybank, goodness what are you doing here?" Kelce raised his eyebrows as he saw me coming. "Nice to see you tooooo" I fake smiled and reached for the beer bottle in his hands. "Thank you" I took a big sip and finished the drink. "That's my drink Pogue" he exclaimed and I smiled. "My bad" I said and looked around again.

"Do you need something from me or you just came here to piss me off with your Pogue presence" he grunted. "Actually, I do need something from you? Isn't that crazy?" "gosh you had way too much to drink..." "where's Rafe?" I asked suddenly.

This question seemed to surprise him because he stared at me for a bit then giggled. "Rafe as in Rafe Cameron?" "yes don't act so surprised" I rolled my eyes. Is there another Rafe Cameron in the Kook community or what?

"He went upstairs, in his room" in his room.
"Alone?" I gasped.

Kelce hesitated before answering me then checked me out suspiciously.
"Pretty sure he was with Sofia" he nodded.

When I heared her name some other dose of alcohol came back to the surface and I vomited on Kelce. Literally on him.

"Ew!! Oh my god are you crazy! This is disgusting!" he cried out with disgust in his face.
"That's uh...thank you gift for telling me where Rafe is. Thanks" I reached for some water in the kitchen and drank some to get rid of the vomit in my mouth before running upstairs.
I pushed away some people in my way when I went upstairs.

I found his bedroom without problem and took a deep breath before knocking or barging in.
What if they're... no. I won't let myself throw up again. This is my chance.

I reached for the door knob and opened it slowly. I carefully looked around the bedroom but Rafe was nowhere to be seen.

I took a second to just observe his bedroom. Inhale his scent and in that moment I noticed the balcony door open.

I slowly walked over to the door and when I stepped outside, there he was.

Alone.

Relief.

He was leaning against the balcony fence, looking straight ahead.

"Rafe..." I managed to say.

His shoulders immediately tensed and his gaze went down then slowly to me. And his eyes finally met mine.

"I see Sofia is not here" I say and he stares at me blankly.

"Rafe... I left you about fifty voice messages" I took a few steps closer to him. "I know" he replied. "You didn't call back" "I didn't"

Awkward silence followed.

He looked mesmerizing. In the dark under the moonlight. His hair buzzed, white t-shirt with blue jeans.

"Look, what I said last week, about us just sleeping together...I didn't mean that, I was angry. I say stupid things when I'm angry and you out of all people should understand that okay! So leaving me like this...hanging. I don't deserve that. I told you I loved you and I do! I love you and I'm sorry Rafe, I know I didn't act well. I know that" I exclaimed. I didn't even think through what I was saying. The words just fell from my mouth.

"Jules-" "no. Let me finish" I cut him off immediately. "Jules no, you're drunk. Don't say things you don't mean. I'm not in the mood right now" "but that's the thing Rafe! I mean every single thing! I love you so much it hurts. This week was torture! My friends hated me, my brother hated me. You couldn't even call me back! And let me tell you, being ignored by you really sucked Rafe. I- I felt so alone" tears started pouring down again.

"Jules if you think I had the best week of my life you're wrong! It was also torture to ignore you. I had to use another phone so I wouldn't have to see your name pop up every minute since you were completely spamming me. And yeah I was hurt after your apparently "meaningless" words from the other week!" he yelled back and I shook my head multiple times.

"I'm sorry. Okay? I am. I didn't mean it! I fucking love you, how many times do you need me to say it" I cried out and his hand slowly reached for my face and wiped the tears from my cheek.

"You're drunk" he whispered.

"What? No! I mean yes, I am. But I mean this Rafe" I stopped his hand before he removed it from my cheek with my hand.

"You can't leave me now" I bit my lip staring up in his blue eyes.

"I know you love me" I added as sobs followed.

"Julienne" he murmured.

"Please Rafe" I wrapped my arms around him and let myself inhale his scent. His so perfect scent.
The alcohol made it smell one hundred times better.

After some hesitation his arms slowly wrapped around me and he caressed my back with his palm.
Butterflies appeared in my stomach and the sensation made me smile.

I had the song I love you Im sorry from Gracie in my head the whole time I wrote this chapter hahah.

I just wanted to thank you guys for all the support on this book and I wanted to apologize for leaving the book not finished so long... But I'm back and I won't leave it now !

xo