Long-distance love game

Chapter 6: Jealousy

I really don't know why, but I've always seen this as something good, and yes, I'm talking about jealousy. Don't you feel that if there is jealousy, there is love? I don't want to sound toxic, but if a partner doesn't feel jealous of the other, it means they don't really feel too much. At least, they should have a minimum amount of jealousy to make their beloved feel that she is his and her smiles, her time, her body, her whole being, first belongs to him and then to others. Or rather, others take a back seat and the most important thing is to demonstrate the significance they have between each other.

In this case, I would like to talk about what I felt, every time I entered thegame and she was busy helping someone else. Obviously, I wanted to give herspace, but inside I would say, I hope she finishes quickly and comes to me, andto my surprise, she wanted the same. Eso era algo que me llenaba el corazón, saber que yo anhelaba estar conella y ella lo mismo, no había necesidad de buscarla porque ella también meestaba buscando, eso poco a poco fortalecía mi confianza.

Ana- Sorry, love, I'mhelping player1, I'll finish quickly and come to you, okay?

Leo- it's okay my love, calm down <3


Ana- I love you <3


Leo- me more <3


I used to say that, but as I tell you, inside I was saying "leave it andcome," because I miss you by my side. It's funny, but I couldn't tell herthat; I wanted her to see it. And yes, she was similar to me in that casebecause when I helped others, or if I was in a voice chat with others, thefirst thing she noticed was that there was no other woman with me, as if shedistrusted what they might say to me. For that reason, I avoided it fromhappening; at least if there was a woman, there had to be several friends, soshe wouldn't doubt that the only woman I wanted to be alone with was her.Moreover, I wasn't interested in being alone with anyone else, I only had eyesfor my Ana. I truly give myself completely when I feel love, and she wasn't anormal love; it was a love much greater than I could have ever imaginedfeeling.
We were both too fearful that a third person would arrive and somehow steal theother's attention; we didn't want to lose each other. Those fears brought usquite close but distanced us a bit from everyone else. In our current clan, wecould no longer share freely with everyone, and not everyone liked thatattitude, especially the leader. That's where one of the first couple testsappeared.


Team leader (woman) - Can we talk?

Ana- Of course, what topic?

Leader in the game - it's something personal, I would like you not to tell Leo.

Ana- mm it's fine

Obviously, I know about that conversation because the first thing Ana did was tell me what they talked about. It was through a voice chat, the clan leader insinuated that I had something more with another girl from the clan, a girl who was really friends with several men and just because of that, it made the leader jealous, and at the same time, they wanted to use me as an excuse to make her jealous and make them fight over me.

I really don't know why people have that eagerness to get involved in other people's relationships. If they at least had good intentions, helping a couple is welcome, but those who only seek to create a problem where there isn't one, or for their own benefit, make no sense to me.
Obviously, I wasn't involved with anyone else; all my time was just for my Ana. She knew it and fully trusted me, which is why she told me what the leader said, and honestly, it made me angry. One tried to help in that clan, but the leader only suffered from uncontrollable jealousy and would make up things that weren't true. Maybe she was also mad at me because in my own server, which I was able to create together with Ana, we started organizing our own events that weren't exclusive to her clan. This led to a fight with the leader, and honestly, after so many lies and conflicts with her, I decided to leave. It made no sense to stay in a clan where the leader, the one who is supposed to support us all and collaborate, only sought to create pointless fights among women.
Maybe it was her lack of confidence with her partner, she also had a boyfriend in the game, and inside she was afraid of losing him to another new girl.
To my surprise, several friends left with me, and knowing my reasons, of course Ana went hand in hand with me. We didn't know where to go, we had a brief stop at a friend's clan, but we didn't fit in. Ana and I, along with those who followed us, who were our closest friends, finally decided to create our own clan, which might not be a great clan, but it would be ours, and we would set our own rules, and we wouldn't accept people with bad tempers or problematic issues.
That's how the immortal clan was born; it was basically a small group of friends, but all quite experienced. We spent our time playing and talking on voice chat, and none of them minded if I left to spend time alone with Ana. That clan was born to form a group of people dedicated to PvM, in a friendly way without external dramas. My dream has always been to have a clan like that, but I didn't have the courage to do it alone. If it hadn't been for Ana, I probably would have never wanted to create a new clan.
I was truly grateful that she trusted me enough not to believe the gossip from the leader of the other clan; if she had let herself be swayed by unfounded jealousy, we might have fought over a senseless triviality. And to tell the truth, throughout the entire time our relationship lasted, I could never look at another woman with desire.

My jealousy, on the other hand, was stronger; I had an internal struggle to control it, but she seemed so cute, so charismatic that I felt she stole the spotlight everywhere, and I thought, if she's like this in real life, I'm in trouble, because maybe at some point, some handsome guy might flirt with her and steal her from me. What would happen if someone from work or a friend convinced her to leave me, or that I wasn't good for her? She asked me those questions very often, my lack of confidence, the distance that separated us, the fights we could have, I couldn't fix them if I couldn't even kiss her, hug her, or really be by her side. It's very complicated to feel powerless because of being so far away.

Leo - I'm scared



Ana- what love?



Leo - and what if you get tired of me and fall in love with someone closer?



Ana - that won't happen, I only have eyes for you



Leo- safe :c?



Ana - Why do you hesitate? Over time, you will realize what I really feel for you.



Leo- I love you <3



Ana- Me too <3

Maybe that was the problem, my confidence was never strong, but she made me feel so at ease that little by little I felt she was truly the woman of my life, I had to trust her more and in what we felt. There is no possibility that our hearts are wrong. She was the one for me and could only make me happy.

To be honest, there were more conflicts on my part. During the day, she was very busy and sometimes couldn't respond to me as often. I would tell her to reply as soon as she could; maybe I was putting too much pressure on her with that, but I couldn't go without seeing a message from her that would bring joy to my heart. My fear of losing her was very strong, my fear that one day I wouldn't be important to her because of someone else was even stronger. But little by little, step by step, I was giving myself more to her love. She had a lot of patience with me, to tell the truth, she guided me, she built a trust that I could never have with anyone else, and I was always very distrustful.
Sometimes I would tell him, I don't even trust my own shadow, even your best friend can betray you, and it's true, even if you would put your hand in the fire for someone, you really can't trust anyone, or at least that's what I always believed. But my Ana gave me a security that partially took away some of my fears, with her sweet words, with her attention, with her eagerness to know about me with such intensity when she had her free time, with all that she earned my complete trust, perhaps not from the beginning, but that trust gradually extinguished my jealousy. I'm not saying they stopped feeling them, but they were controlled jealousy a little more each day.
The truth is that even though she was perfect, I would always be jealous, because I saw her with the eyes of someone in love, and when you love someone so much, your greatest fear will always be losing them, so that's why I was jealous, because if someone stole her attention, I would die, or at least that's what I always said. And if she was jealous in any way, it made me feel nice, loved, important to her, the most important person in my heart.
When someone gets jealous in such a sweet way, it only generates more love in the other person. That's how I felt with her every time she showed me a bit of jealousy; I wanted to hug her, kiss her, and tell her that I only have eyes for her, but that it doesn't bother me that she still gets jealous—on the contrary, I love it.