I'm Gonna Miss You Baby

Ten

"Is this Angela Bass?" a woman asked "Depends on whose asking" I joked "Hi Ange, It's Leslie Abramson" She responded "Oh hi Mrs.Abramson, congratulations by the way I heard about your adoption" I replied happily "thank you, Angela, I was calling to ask a very important question actually" She told me

"what's up" I asked "Jill and I were wondering, would you like to be an intern for this mistrial, you'd be perfect for it, you have so much knowledge and understanding of this case it'd be great if you could help us out and get some real world experience" she asked and I was in shock "I haven't even graduated yet, are you sure you want me-" I started "yes, we both think you could really make a difference" she told me "then of course, I'd love to help" I answered

I could genuinely not be more happy

She gave me more information and as soon as I hung up I called Erik

I told him everything and he sounded relived but he told me he's been very stressed and I tried to help him relax and let him know that I was getting him out of there

Five and a half months later Leslie invited me to come with her talk to the female jurors to ask why the men didn't have the same feeling towards the boys

All the women right off the bat were telling me how my testimony almost swayed the men but they couldn't wrap their heads around the fact the men and boys can be abused too

They told us that the male jurors don't have the maternal instincts the women do so they didn't feel as much empathy for the brothers

Leslie called Erik and one of the women told him how they believed him and support him but he asked to talk to either just me or Leslie

Leslie told me to take it

"Erik what's up?" I asked quietly while Leslie talked to the women behind me

"I'm really stressed out Ange, I don't know how much more I can be in here" he told me and my heart sunk "I'm sorry Erik, we're gonna get you out soon I promise" I replied and he sighed deeply "you can't promise that" he said back "this all feels off you know, it's like the media... they've turned against us" he stated and it was true most people believe they did it

"I'm getting a lot of hate mail now" he told me and I sighed this time "don't read anymore mail, unless it's from me or your family or Tammi" I sang the woman's name teasingly trying to lighten the mood

"I'm serious Angela. I think it's over, somethings off it doesn't feel right" he said sounding stressed "Erik, trust me, we are going to win this case. Have I ever lied to you?" I questioned "no" he sighed "exactly, put a little faith in me Leslie and Jill. We are getting you and Lyle out of there" I told him "I'll talk to you later" he sighed "ok love you bye" I said "love you too bye" he replied before hanging up

After the little meeting Leslie pulled me aside to talk before I headed home

"Jill and I were talking, you'd be representing one of the brothers. For Lyle you'd be with me Jill and him always or Erik it'd be mostly just me you and him. Which brother would you prefer to represent" she asked me

"Erik" I said right away "wow that was a fast answer" she chuckled "I haven't talked to Lyle in almost six months, and the last time we did talk we fought" I told her

"Whys that?" She questioned "he's being difficult" I answered then sighed "it's just been hard because the only time we're able to talk it out is through the phone and that ends up blowing up so we just don't talk" I told her

"Why does it blow up" she questioned "because he doesn't acknowledge when he's wrong and it gets frustrating. Then we start yelling, then one of us says something to hurt the other person, and we stop talking again" I explained

"What happened last time?" She asked "the argument started when we were telling eachother that we didn't like hearing about each other's parents... I guess we could call it, and it ended when he told me that maybe him being in jail was for the better so he could get away from my clinginess and insecurity" I told her and she thought for a second

"Ok, you're going to work with me, representing Erik, but that means talking to both brothers and being apart of me and Jill's team" she told me, I sighed "ok"

The first time I went with Leslie and Jill was a meeting with Lyle

I walked in last and I saw his face right away, rolling his eyes acting like a little girl

I didn't acknowledge him

I sat in one of the chairs across from him and took out my notebook and pen

"You know I don't think I feel comfortable with Angela in here. I don't know if you guys know this but she's pretty hostile" Lyle told them and I looked up from my page at him "hostile? Are you kidding me Lyle" I questioned annoyed

"No, I don't think this is the right space to joke" he replied "mm real mature" I rolled my eyes sitting back "you're one to talk" he mumbled "What's that supposed to mean?" I asked back

"I'm not the one who just hangs up when they don't wanna hear something" he shrugged "yeah well I'm not the one feeding you lies, driving you crazy" I answered 

"I don't lie to you that's why you're mad, I told you you're clingy which you are, I told you you're insecure which again you are" he told me "I am not clingy and Insecure! If anything you're fucking clingy you've called be multiple times in a row for weeks and I never answered! Maybe that's a sign I don't want your fucking psycho ass" I yelled at him

"You know what! I never wanted you, I just went along with it because you're easy! Get out of here I don't want you representing me" he told me and I wanted to cry

"You only wanted me because you think I'm easy?" My tone softened "yeah, you're a skank I never wanted to be with you" he told me and I felt tears coming

I looked in the room and Leslie and Jill were gone

"Fuck you Lyle" I said getting up "yeah you wish" he said under his breath and I left the room

Leslie and Jill were standing there "you guys done?" Leslie asked me "I am, I don't want to work with him. Sorry" I said before leaving

I sat in my car and cried, I know it shouldn't get to me because I know it's not true, but... what if it was. I mean I did say I loved him first and he knew he'd be locked up for a long time

Oh my god every bit of it was a lie