Areston thinks he can shield me from his past, but what he doesn't realize is I'm already part of it.
The darkness that haunts him? It's the same one that's been chasing me for years.
I've given him everything-my body, my heart, my soul-and still...
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side note
ah, there she goes again... you must be thinking.
I didn't want to, but I had a very enlightening chat with one of my dearest readers last night and it really made me realize how feel about my whole experience on Wattpad and pushed me to say it out loud.
Updating every day on time only to witness radio silence from a majority of the readers is really depressing as fuck. ngl. I feel like I update it for no one except myself and the 4-5 of the ones who unfailingly always motivate me with their feedback, and that's all. I don't really need attention, but it's a super awful feeling to put your blood and sweat out there, and feel unappreciated by an absolute lack of engagement on my comment. I know those of you ghost-read it have a lot of reasons why you don't show it, but it's kind of negatively triggering. why do I even update on Wattpad? Because I love Wattpad so much that I am willing to risk this precious work of mine being stolen and plagiarized? No. Did I even have a reason to return to Wattpad? Not really. Why did I? So I could get your feedback guiding me through it. Did the feedback come? Nope. Not apart from those handful of people who I owe so much to.
What reason do I have any more to update it here when I am done writing the finale? None. Why am I still doing it? Because I owe to those who have always given me their perspectives and engagement. Because a part of me feels like I owe it to those who have stuck through since the previous versions. I am not accusing anyone of anything, but please know it hurts. Really hurts.
So if you're reading works by other authors on Wattpad---especially the ones that aren't charging yet putting it out there unfailingly every week and not even threatening you that they won't update unless the chapter gets X no. of votes and X. no of comments, do leave meaningful feedback and comments on their work at least to make them feel valued and appreciated. Believe me, that's the only reason they're putting it out. You never know what they could be going through in their personal lives and might be coming here to feel motivated and valued watching that someone appreciates what they do. It could be the whole reason they might be pushing through. Always remember that.
Having said that, do not feel pressured to engage. It's not some sick reverse psychology or guilt trip tbh. I just wanted to be honest about my experience here and share a thing or two about what not to do with other writers.
Thanks!
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I walk past the heavily guarded security at the grand oak doors of my father's Lenox Hill townhouse that rivals a mansion, and into the opulent, grand drawing room that is rich with vintage and classic elegance, and exudes a sense of quiet authority and history.
