August Boy

I Told you Things

I told you things that I never said, you are a golden boy and my worst regret, 

So I paid the price and limited my feelings, you were at all once, and now I faded into blues, 

Took all your time and the lovely words back, 

You were in my hands and you are in my basement, there's some pain, 

Could you tell the pain, you are fearing that I'm insane, 

Hey, wait guess what, 

I stopped expecting and I played it safe, 

Instead of walking straight to you to say stay, 

Nevermind, okay, 

And you meant it when you changed, 

After all the " I Love You" you used to say, 

All of me was enough to throw away, 

Faking your fancies and games, and stay, 

I've lost 2 years, it's strange, 

What if I took your call as more than just a call? 

I lost the colour in my face when I recognised you, 

As writing your book, you built a cage, 

Hallucination, shame, guilt, pain, 

Don't let me know that I'm alone in pain, more pain 

I felt good about you until I didn't, 

Do you freak out or feel sad? 

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I told you things that I never said to anybody else, I regret them, 

But I'll pack it up and practice leaving, 

You were all at once until I faded into black, 

You broke the sake of my reaching, the Yellow glow, 

You were in my heart, but you are good at leaving.