If only...

Part 1

"CALLA HURRY UP I WANT TO EAT" viktoria kept yelling at me to hurry up she was hungry oh well we have cookies usually she loves cookies "GIVE ME A MINUTE YOU TOLD ME TO LOOK NICE SO I'M TRYING TO NOT LOOK LIKE TRASH"

I finish my makeup a couple minutes later we are meeting up with Mason  Luka and Jaylen to finalize my birthday plans ugh I hate my birthday is just a celebration of me getting old and slowly dying yay death "okay calla I said look nice not sexy" I rolled my eyes at viktoria "I'm only wearing a skirt sweater boots and leg warmers it's comfy" "yeah well you look hot come on let's go before I set myself on fire"

I loved hanging out with viktoria she always showed her phsyco side shes a pyromaniac same with me shes someone i relate to I wish I met her sooner

after dinner it was boring we went to the mall they said I need early birthday gifts all I want is Melanie Martinez stuff I love Melanie

"calla what do you want something or something that isn't nothing? " "I want Melanie stuff" "again? " that's Mason the amazing sometimes sarcastic a-hole ugh I hate swearing

"calla anything but Melanie stuff? she cost money honey" viktoria asks me I think for 0 seconds before saying "matches? knifes? a pet shark? " "I can get matches and a knife not a pet shark" I fake frown before Jaylen finally speaks. Luka walks around the store he's so quiet

"well calla what about" Jaylen thinks for what feels like forever "WE CAN GO TO A CLUB" my eyes widden as I yell back at her "ABSOLUTELY NOT" Jaylen snaps back "to bad it's already official"

Mason looks at Jaylen he has a crush on her I just know it so does Luka "Jaylen stfu" my eyes widen "AY AY you know I don't like swearing stop it" Mason replies "sorry your majesty" he says it with a a-hole tone. my parents swore so much I started hating it my parents died once I turned 13.My mom was Christian I was born on Friday the 13th they think I'm a curse as soon as I turned 13 my mom shot herself in the head. My dad died of cancer 2 weeks later or so the doctor said.

"don't call me that" I flick him off I don't mind hand motions I just hate the words. "viktoria control your girlfriend" viktoria snaps back at Mason "control your mouth man-whore" Mason pretends to be hurt Ime and Luka laugh at viks comment.

"at least I got a girl you can't get a girlfriend for the life of you" Mason thinks of something to say. "w-well i-i at least i" I intrupt him "you make straight woman lesbian you make Christian woman turn lesbian your that ugly" Mason looks shocked he stays silent score!

"well Mason you are officially fucked sucks to suck" viktoria tells Mason I roll my eyes as she curses they are used to swearing they have gotten better tho. I've known them for 2 years Mason introduced me to vik  then Vik introduced me to the quiet Luka he's kinda cute tbh I'm so grateful that I met them . I've always had a hard time finding friends I'm happy I have a good group of the people I love.

Sometimes I wonder If only.