Long Distance Love

Chapter 13

Its been month passed and I'm falling in love with him day by day. I can't believe how my relationship with him keeps growing and growing non-stop. I always texting him on the daylight and usually at night I won't disturb him because he usually gaming at night with his buddies and me in the other hand usually sleeping after back from home. I was just finished showering and all, I looked at my phone and there was so many missed calls and I looked who it was, it was him. 

I opened the chat and called him again. It was ringing just a second and he picked up. "Bb what are you doing? why didn't you picked up my calls?" I giggled on how cute he was so I responded back to him "I was in the shower and my phone was on the table charged it" after the moment I respond he switched the on call to video call. I accepted the request to switched video call and he was all cutesy and giddy waving hi at me. "What are you doing?" he showed me his PC screen and I nodded. "I'm still waiting for them to opened the lobby so while waiting , I wanna on call with you while waiting" I smiled and he kept continue what he said "or you want to accompany me and watching me play?" I nodded excitedly and he did the same too. He put his phone on the phone stand facing himself half body. 

"I thought you ask me to watch you play?" he shook his head cutely and said "No no I want you to look at me only" he give me a kiss on the screen and I was laughing. He put his headphones on and start talking to his buddies. "I'm on now, waiting you guys to opened lobby" I stared at him and while I was staring, I didn't realized he was looking at me. "Baby?" I stopped my stared and looked at him. "Yes" he was chuckling and shook his head. "Nothing, just me calling you" l looked at him and he give kisses at me. 

After awhile I was watching him playing his game it was all about cursing, laughing and back to cursing. I didn't realized I was started dozing off, he noticed that and looked at me. "Baby, baby" I looked at him with my half eyes opened and he put out his headphones, looked at me. "baby, you seem so sleepy. How about you go to sleep first okay?" I hummed a yes and he give me kisses then wishing goodnight. "I love you baby" I smiled and looked at him. "I love you more honey"

He waved goodbye and then he ended the called. I put my phone down and started to get comfy and continuing sleeping. 

The next day, I woke up from my sleep and I looked at my phone it was 5:00am. I opened my chat and texting him as usual. "Good morning honey <3" then I closed my phone and get ready with my day. I drove myself to work after sending my mom to work and as usual I put my song in a blast because it was too early for me and I usually really sleepy while driving so I put my music in a loud blast and drove to work. I was on my way to work and I heard the notification ring. 

*ding*

"Good morning my babyyy <3" I smiled to see the chat but I can't replied since I am still driving. Not a minute or hours but a second I looked the text he sent, my phone started to rang. 

*ring ring ring*

I picked up the called from him. "Hello" he said. I smiled so widely I cant feel my cheeks bone in a second. "Hello baby"

"Why are you calling me?" 

"Cannot? I wanted to hear" - Charleston

I giggled. "Baby, i'm at work already ok?" I smiled and nodded as if he can looked at me. 

"Ok happy working love" 

"Happy working too baby, where are you know?" 

"I'm on my way to work, not yet arrived"

"ok. Drive safe. Got to go. I love you baby" I smiled "take care honey, I love you more"

I hung up the phone and smiled to myself while driving. This is what it feels like to date with a person who was thousands of kilometers from you but in healthy relationship so perfectly. I was doing my work as usual, following up and do a new task as I key in new name list. *ding* I looked at my phone and saw the notification from the top. 

"I miss you so badly~" - Charleston 

I smiled like a child who got her first phone. Excitement. I respond to him quickly. "I miss you too, I'm busy. I'll text when I'm free" I smiled looking at my screen until someone started to take me back to earth. "You smiling so much was so sweet but it was a bit creepy" I looked at Sammy that was beside me and I chuckled. "Oh come on, you love seeing me smile rather than me being sad" she scoffed and came near me. "Yeah yeah I know you are happy so I am saying is I don't want you to be sad anymore. I hate seeing you sad and pretend everything is okay when you know is not okay" I nudged her on the shoulder and I smiled. "I just hope his the one" she smiled at me and we continue our day doing our usual task and as boring as it can be.

To be honest, I love him more than I like him. I know because 

A few years ago

"YOU ONLY LOVE ME BECAUSE OF FAME! AND I KNOW YOU TAKE ADVANTAGE OF HOW NICE I AM TO YOU. THAT IS WHY YOU DO ME LIKE THIS" I cried trying to hold his hand but he kept rejecting it. "Isaac I told you. I did not love you because of fame. We have been together for so long and you know ! you know how much I care for you, I love you, I love your family. What else I don't love?"  he turned his back on me and pulled his hair back. "I'm losing my mind. I can't do this anymore" I walked behind him and hold his arm. "I want a break up"

I had my eyes widen seeing him from behind. "W-what?" he turns around. "I can't do it. I'm losing my mind and I don't feel that I'm in my right mind right now. I care for you and I'm not in the better state for this. Please give me some time" I took both of his hands and made him look at me. "Isaac, love. I know you are not in your right mind but we don't have to break up please. I'll give you time if you need spaces. We have been together for so long, breaking up after all those promises, all those life we have been planning together. You want to let go of it everything?" 

I saw his tears started forming and he looks at me. "I want to be a better version of myself again and I want to be a better boyfriend for you. This might be the best decision for both of us. Please." I sighed and looking down at my feet for awhile. "Okay but please remember this one thing. I'll wait for you and please I love you so much. I'm more scared of losing you than losing myself"

He put his forehead on mine. "I'll remember. I promise. I'll be back with the best version of myself." I smiled. "So this is a goodbye?" he nodded with his tears fell down. "Goodbye Celine" I looked at him and form a smiled. "Goodbye Isaac, I'll be waiting here" I hugged him for the last time and he left. 

I cried and cried again every night. After that he never come back. Two weeks after our break up, I found out he had a new girlfriend and she was the girl that he told me not to be worried about. I was mad, I cried, I was not myself. Until then I found rebound, closure to a lot of guys to know that I can't even move on from him after year to another year. Till I found him.

I promise myself back then "If I ever found someone who I see him in my new partner, I will forget him, I will fully move on. I will let go for my own peace." that was when I fulfilled my promise after I met Charleston.