Long Distance Love

Chapter 14

I sighed knowing the ride from work to my house took so long after all traffics. I kept thinking of how struggling and messed up I am back years ago after breaking up with my previous boyfriend. He was sweet and all but he wasn't the one that I thought about. I look at the clear skies how blessed I am of how lucky I am meeting Charleston, I mean we never fought or anything it was just a smooth relationship until that I thought so.

"Hey baby" - Charleston 

"I'm at work" - Charleston

I looked at the text he send me and I didn't think that was the text I feel like I'm gonna cry reading it. I was like where was the "good morning"? and a "heart"? I'm very overthinker. I didn't said anything at first maybe he forgot to wish me a good morning. Not just that where I thought so he didn't even updated me where his about and I was worried hell a sick. What was wrong with him? The only think that was in my mind was, is he changing? I was worried and just didn't say anything about it, I kept it to myself even though I have to cried myself to bed. I looked at my laptop and tried to brushed it all away. 

"HEY !" I was in a shocked and look at a person beside me. "Sammy do that again and I definitely giving you a death threat after this" I sighed and continue looking at my laptop but I don't know what was I doing just now. "Let me guess, you zoned out not down to earth and forget about what you're doing just now?" she looked at me and I looked at her with my pouting face. "Yes" she sighed and sat next to me. 

"What's wrong?" she looked at me with that worried eyes of her. "Nothing" I kept looking at my laptop without even put a glanced at her. "Come on, you didn't even smile today for me to mock you. No fun though. Seeing you not smiling something is off for sure. You wanna tell me?" 

I looked at her and just sighed. "Charleston has been acting very not himself towards me, what if he doesn't love me? what if is getting bored of me and leave like the others? I'll be living with 50 cats in when I'm old. Even how much I love that but I cannot bare myself don't have a husband and kids. What if-" I didn't even finished my sentences and Sammy cut me off.

"HEY! BREATH! are you out of your mind? I know you overthinker but I didn't know you overthink till there like who does lives with 50 cats when they are old?" I looked at her and breath. "Geez you should breath and THINK STRAIGHT will you. Maybe he is just being him. I mean you did told me that he wasn't that kind of person who always texting. I guess that's it but at least he is still texting." I sighed. "but Sammy remember Alex did the same thing. It all started with lovey dovey sending hearts everyday and then it is not been 3 months he is bored already" 

Sammy sighed and get a gripped on my both shoulder. "You ! That is Alex and I known him since he dating this one girl that is how vicious but I think this one is good seeing how he threated you all the time. Come on. Usually a healthy relationship works for long distance relationship" I sighed and shut my eyes as I tried to brushed everything what was on my head saying. "Please don't be like this, communicate with him and try to slow talk alright? plus you guys are long distance love should put that in a book" she nudged  my shoulder to make me giggled a little.

Maybe I should have a nice communication with him and talk about it. 

"ughhhhhhhhhhh" I slammed my head on the table and just slumped myself on the table. "What on earth is going on with you?" Sammy give me a snapped on my back and I looked at her in shocked. "What is that for?" she chuckled and said "That is for you to why you slammed your head on the table" I looked at the table and slammed myself again at the table. "I can sense something is wrong here, tell me" I looked at her and sighed. I turned my way to her and just give her the pouting face. "He kept ignored everything what I said until I didn't mean to hurt him by my words. It was just like me a baby mad at him." she looked at me and give that eyebrow thingy.

"What did you say to him?" I looked at her and I gave her the looked as well. "He wants to go to buy a muscle pain patch and I quickly respond to him saying if they also got selling heart pain patch" I pouting almost crying. "then what did he respond?" I looked at her with my tears already built up and saying "he respond to me yeah what I do is hurting you everyday, am I? without even using our pet names."  I looked up at the ceiling make sure I didn't cried.

"Oh honey, you make it worse" I cry. "I know but I didn't mean too I kept apologizing to him all over every hour and just so messed up myself. After how disappointing my respond were he become even distance himself. It's not himself though." Sammy gave me patted on the back and calmed me down. "You give him some times, maybe he is ego and all. You know guys right? Give him time and don't spam him. You hear me? DO.NOT.SPAM. Used a care-bear method and he will comeback searching for you. Okay?" she give a patted on my back and continued doing her work while I'm here still pensive all the way in my deepest thoughts. 

It has been 3 days and he hasn't text me as the same he was before. I miss him everyday knowing he completely ignoring me. He kept texting me with just sending one or two words and then that was it. I was frustrated and I wanted to talk to him but I know I should give him time then so just talked to him as usual. It's that time where I change how I looked at the relationship and just keep in mind. 

I was scrolling through my Instagram for me to brushed away the thoughts that had been keeping playing in my head and I saw this picture where it said.

"dating a soft spoken man, a man who won't disrespect you when there's misunderstandings, and falls out, he knows to distance and stay silent during anger, a man who still has the same level of respect and love during bad terms"

I was staring at the words maybe he felt like that when I make him mad so it was obvious he just don't want to throw it all on me at the end. I gave him spaces and time, after just a chat or double chat I sent to him then I won't bother him anymore.