A Kiss to my Need

Get Out Of My Life

Mouths Later***

Ray pov

Ever since my little accident with my red mustang, I've not been myself. I'm more nervous now and shaky. I try to put the past behind me but it keeps coming back. Every night I have a dream where I'm in the car and I get hit. Like that day but the dream it's different. I die...Every dream I didn't live but died in the hospital. I see everyone that cares for me crying over my dead body. Why does it happen? I don't want it.

"Hey Ray, pay attention," the teacher said, looking straight into my eyes. Even people have been acting differently towards me. I really do hate it. But I don't mind them but the one I do mind is Sand.

When I was in the hospital Sand and Boston were the first people to see me. I was shocked to say the least. I shouted at him like I did but I noticed there was worry in his eyes then.

*"Ray come on, take your meds," Sand said to me but I crossed my hands over my chest. I didn't want to take them, I hated pills. I could tell I was getting on Sand's nerves and I liked it.

"Nope, not taking them," I said in a sassy tone, shaking my head to him. Sand's eyes stared into my soul and he didn't make a peep. I gulped but kept eye contact. Then a little smirk appeared on his lips. I hated that smirk of his.

"You're not gonna take them," he said, taking a step closer, "okay we will see about that." He came closer step by step. I had no fear towards this man, none. He lowers his head to be at my level. My eyes watched his movements closely.

"I'm not gon-" I was cut off by a force kiss. I almost yelped by Sand's sudden movement. I cursed in my mind, falling for it again. I felt his tongue push something inside my mouth. I soon realized it was the pill. He moved the pill to the back of my throat and I almost choked. He pulled back and shoved water in my mouth.

"See you did," he said, moving back. I was too lost in what happened to say anything back. For the rest of the time, I just stayed quiet. I could tell Sand was laughing inside his mind and that made me mad. But I couldn't do anything about it.*

That time played in my mind, most days. Haunting me...but again Sand changed. He was the only one who took care of me. As time went by I got used to it. Not fighting him as much and slowly started enjoying him. Even to a point I was waiting for him to come in the mornings to see him.

A small smile filled my lips. When I realized I was in class, I almost jumped. Damn, spacing out again. I looked at the board and went back to my notes. My notes were blank. Shoot. I hurried to grab my pencil and jot the notes. Out of nowhere the bell rang. Shit it's time already! Everyone got up and left the classroom. I haven't even written two sentences yet.

"Ray, come here," the teacher said in a dangerous tone. I'm in trouble...

All the students left but me, it was only me. I grabbed my crap and went to the teacher.

"You've been off lately, what's wrong, something bothering you?" he asked.

"No sorry, just been thinking about exams," I lied, I always lie. He nodded and let me go.

I walked out the building and my eyes landed in my old parking space. I froze. The crash replayed in my mind. My breathing became rapid. My whole body was shaking. Damn, why won't it stop. I could hear all the screams and cries.

"Ah," I let out a painful yelp but the sound. My ears are ringing, making me dizzy. My balance losing itself.

I suddenly felt a hand on my shoulder. My back leaned on the other. I knew it was Sand, who else would it be. Damnit. I couldn't push him off. I had no strength. So I listened to him.

I'm laying on the couch, not any couch but Sand's. I didn't understand how I got here or why I'm here. My body just followed Sand. I wanted to punch myself but I'm too weak. Again with Sand saving me. Damn...It's always him.

"Shit," I curse, putting my hand on my head. The pain spung around but calmer than before.

"So you can talk?" Sand said, walking in front of me. I glared at him when I saw his expression. He has a smile but no normal smile of his.

I sat up and Sand sat next to me. Everything was hitting me at once. I wanted to cry for no reason. Maybe it was me but maybe it is Sand. I don't know anymore. I feel tired and my life is draining. I just want to sleep and never have to deal with anyone.

"Please stop," I said under my breath. I looked down and didn't want to meet Sand's strong gaze.

"What was that?" he asked, "are you mocking me?" he said, the sound of anger in his voice. I am tired. I stood up and wanted to leave but Sand grabbed my arm. He forced me to look back at him.

"Please, I'm asking," I finally said.

"What? I helped you and check in on you and this is how you repay me!" he shouted and that was my last straw. I clenched my fist at my side. I just want this to stop.

"Please," I took my arm out of his, "Please leave me the fuck alone, get the hell out of my life!" I yelled with tears falling. I am just so tired and I can't keep doing this. I looked right into Sand's eyes. He was shocked and took a step back. "I can't keep doing this, I really can't," I choked out a sob. I wiped my eyes from the tears that came endlessly.

"Ray," he said but I stopped him.

"No, you don't understand. Ever since my car crash you helped me. I hated it but then it made me happy. I can't anymore, I really can't. Please stop," I said, with more tears.

I headed for the door once more, no one stopped me. I can't anymore, I really can't continue like this.