Salvation BoyxBoy (Under Major Editing)

Chapter 23

Much apologies for not publishing and chapters recently, I have a had lot going on but don't worry ii will be publishing more! Hope you have a good day and don't forget your comments and votes matter.

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"Levi," he mumbled and nibbled on my ear

"W-what?" I stuttered.

"I really....REALLY need you." he sighed and kissed the top of my forehead

"But I can't let this happen. Not now that is." he whispered and backed away enough so I could lower my legs. I gazed up at him, confused. My hands were above my head, and I was pretty sure a wet spot had grown on our underwear. His eyes were glassy, but he was smiling nonetheless.

"Levi, now isn't the time." he finally said. I was dumbfounded.

"Really?" I asked. He laid down next to me and gathered me into his arms.

"Really. This time I feel like it shouldn't happen." he said and buried his face into my hair.

"But....why? Was this not the time you were waiting for?" and I rose up on my hand.

"Isn't this your chance to finally fulfil what you've been desiring from nearly day one?"

"Yeah...." he chuckled and shook his head.

"I don't understand." I coughed and felt the tears beginning to brim.

"Did I do something wrong?" He sat up with me and brought my face to his, kissing me.

"Levi...you didn't do anything wrong." he said and gulped.

"I want you more than anything. I want to feel you, I want to listen to you claim me as yours. I want to feel the deepest connection possible with you." He closed his eyes and took a deep breath.

"But...I don't know if I'm ready. And I don't know if you're completely ready either. That moment of intense passion clouds our judgment sometimes," he touched my chest with his fingertips.

"Listen to what's deep inside," the guards readied their pikes and the archers took aim.

"Do you feel like you're ready? Can you put you complete and utter faith in me? Are you willing to let me completely inside?" Much to my dismay, I wasn't. My eyes fell to the mixture of blue and white sheets that were entangled together from our actions, and I laid down with my face buried in them. I breathed in his scent, and cried. I cried hard and my mind dropped lower and lower till it hovered just above rock bottom. I felt Ray's hands touch me and I shook them away.

"Levi..." he said gently.

"No. Don't, I'm pathetic and I know it." I sniffled. I heard him suck in some air and he pulled me up rougher than usual. I blinked the tears away and saw the beginning spark of anger dancing in his eyes.

"Don't ever say that." his voice seared into me.

"Ever!" he shouted. I trembled and tried pulling away from him, but he held fast.

"Levi, I love you, okay?!" his voice was beginning to become full of tears.

"I love you so much that it hurts sometimes, and when you say that it's like a part of me dies. Don't you know that? Can't you see what I feel whenever I hear you say things like that?!" I was silent. I didn't know how to respond.

"You tell me you love me. You tell me that you love me for who I am no matter what." he wiped his tears away with his arm,

"But it's like you expect me to just believe what you say!" he shouted again. He didn't even attempt to wipe his face free of the moisture that fell from his eyes again. He just continued to speak while allowing them to fall.