[Trigger warning: mention of homophobia and abuse, also ableism.]
The next day, Ashe felt empty. While he tried to handle things however he could, he is certainly not good at comforting others. And now, he was trying to understand what it was all about.
It is pretty obvious that Arie is a really sensitive guy. But perhaps there is more to that? There was only one person he could ask all that to...
Eirin: Well we broke up when he came out as gay, but I was planning on breaking up with him the same day. He was just faster
Ashe: It still sounds so crazy to me
Eirin: I'm still pissed to this day btw, I feel like he took me as one of those shitty quizz when you doubt your sexuality, except that this time it was real.
Ashe: You're just upset, no?
Eirin: You bet I am! Good for him if he's a boykisser, I am too, I just believe he most likely had his doubts when our relationship started. BUT ANYWAY let's not talk about the obvious I've got other reasons
Ashe: Mind sharing them?
Eirin: Idc so here it goes: he was just too sensitive for me, I can't stand people who cry easily. The other kind of people I can't stand is those who keep bringing themselves down, being overly anxious over nothing. Like once I wanted to meet his family but he refused instantly without explanation. At some point I learned he got a diagnosis for PTSD, probably related to his family since he doesn't want to talk about them, so that probably explains some of his behavior... But that was too much for me so I just decided to break up
Eirin: But then next morning he tells me he realized he was gay, I was fucking LIVID
Ashe: what do you mean by his diagnosis was too much??
Eirin: I'm not shaming him or anything I just want a stable relationship, and I don't want problems
Eirin: Also I realized that the Happy Arie is probably just an act, i've never met anyone mentally ill who's not playing a role constantly and goddamn I fucking hate this kind of guys
Ashe: You're taking things too far Eirin
Eirin: No?? If anything I'm warning you, you'll end up depressed with that guy
That was some of the worst thing he ever had the chance to read. Those words were cruel, and the worst part is that Eirin is supposedly honest most of the time, so she means what she is saying. Even considering that she is rather harsh whenever she speaks, she was crossing the line.
Ashe: You do know that when you have PTSD, you can't do anything about it, right?? It's not something you can control
Eirin: Oh cut that crap already, if your whole life revolves around that, you need to grow the fuck-up. Don't tell me you take that whole deal seriously??
Ashe: I do
Eirin: LMAO, you only met him a few weeks ago, you should believe me instead
Eirin: Just saying ofc
Ashe: You expect me to agree with anything you said? Do you have any empathy??
Eirin: I don't need anyone to tell me what I say or think is wrong, I only explained why I don't like that guy. And in any case, he'll ruin your life at some point. No matter if you're gay, bi or pan, if you look for a better bf, then I'll gladly support you!
Saying that after everything else seems rather strange, so instead of wasting more time on her, Ashe decided to just not respond. He was baffled, to say the least. Perhaps Arie knew about that rather strange side, that would be why he was weirded out when he learned that Ashe and Eirin are, or perhaps were, friends. She was wrong, and on so many parts.
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The Boy I am
Non-FictionA new school year is about to start, and with it will come many changes for Ashe, a boy with a troubled past. He has no idea about what the future has in store for him, how his brother will act, what his new high school will be like, who he will mee...
