It's been like a week since I agreed on the whole baby thing I've had two doctors appointments to see if I can even carry a baby and I can do yippee then me and Billie both got one two see if our eggs are viable. They all are so now we're waiting for them to mix them and then we need to get our sperm doner and bam! We're finished... we've got two sperm doners that are willing to donate sperm but we're just waiting for a call back from their doctors to see if ya know it's okay to use
"Billie wake up your phones ringing" I shook Billie a little bit "hmm?" She groaned "Bil, your phone is ringing. Wake up" she sighed and sat up "hello?" She answered the phone angrily "wait?! Really? Oh my god that is uhh that's great I will tell her right now... baby ya know Tyler? The sperm doner? His doctor said his sperm is fine to use!! And he said he emailed your doctor and she said you can go in today if you want to?" Billie said really excitedly "uhhh I have to check what I'm doing today bil... just one second"
I got out of bed and went downstairs to the fridge because it had our calendars on it
I have a pretty empty day today
"Billie tell them I can come in at 1!" I shouted "okay" she giggled. I'm glad she's happy but this is scary ... I know a lot of people have kids at this age but like I don't know I'm just panicking for no reason. Well no like I'm gonna have a baby put inside of me? TODAY? What's scary...
"Okay so the time is 9:23am so we got time to chill before hopefully we get a baby inside of you" Billie said coming down the stairs with our blanket wrapped around her "yeah..."
"Baby what's wrong?" Billie asked sitting on the kitchen counter "nothing it's just a big change Billie. And I'm going through with it 100% but like I just want you to know how much this is going to affect my life" I said "kayla it's gonna affect me too... I've been thinking of this for years! I know how hard it's gonna be" Billie said getting slightly angry even though there is no reason to be "but I have to stop my job for this you can keep going. And I've only just started getting into it!" Billie scoffed "whatever Kayla if you don't want to do it then don't, I don't care anymore"
"Cancel the appointment then" I said. Simply as that. I have a fucking job and future career I haven't got time for kids "what?" Billie gasped "you heard me cancel the fucking appointment because I'm not doing it anymore, we'll try again next year but right now I don't think it's a good idea"
"Baby..."
"No Billie don't! I said cancel it so do it!" Billie nodded before going back upstairs. I heard her talking so I assumed she's cancelled the appointment.
