i held my past so close to me
so close that i couldn't see reality
i couldn't see that i was safe
i let my emotions guide my fate
i became someone you didn't know
a demon who i was scared to let go
because sometimes the enemy feels like a safety net
if i let it go then life just becomes a bet
a game a chance and choice
in my head i hear the demon's voice
saying you are not the one
who i can trust with my love
and i listened
your tears glistened
but i didn't care
i was just there
i was just watching and stalling
to keep myself from falling
but falling only teaches us how to fly
and i want to get back to being you and i
but i'm so scared of who i'll be
when i come to get to know me
and you say if i care, ill take the leap
because you're tired of loving me
just to lose me again
i can't imagine how hard it's been
for you
to have your love confused
for hate
i know i always come around a little late
and i'm grateful you've kept me around
despite the times i let you down
i know you don't deserve it
you're only a person
and i should give you love fully, not partly
so i'm sorry
