Envy (Niall Horan Fan-Fic) Book 1(IN EDITING)

Part fourteen

Hey guys! I'm so sorry this chapter took so long to update! My computer broke and I had to wait a whole entire week for a computer guy to come and fix it! UHH! But now it's fixed! WOOO! Now here it is!!! PART FOURTEEN!!!

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ELI’s POV: It’s been about four months since I came back from the hospital. They told me that I collapsed due to exhaustion, dehydration, and starvation. To be honest, I didn’t even care why I collapsed. I felt that it was all worth it because I got to keep in touch with Niall. When I was at the hospital all I could think about was him. I even thought I heard his voice speaking to me. Sofy said that it was probably just the medication causing me to hallucinate because she didn’t see him come by at all.

When I got out of the hospital a week later I was prescribed many medications. The hotel paid for everything. I still don’t know and understand why. Steve gave me a promotion. I am now permanently working in room service. He fired me from all the other jobs. He’s making sure that what happened won’t happen to me again. He’s even paying me more money than all the other room service employees which again, I don’t understand why.

Back to the Niall situation….he hasn’t called me ever since the conversation we had before I fainted. He didn’t reply to my texts or answer my calls. I just didn’t and still don’t understand why. I am just so confused right now about everything. Even though I should be happy because I got a promotion, I’ve been eating again, and Sofy and I are pretty much sisters….I feel numb inside. The person I trusted the most just erased me from his life like nothing. As if I never existed.

I would start having fights with myself. “He’s not calling because he’s probably working and doesn’t have time right now.” “Are you kidding? Your trash! When he found out that you fainted he thought you were a weak joke!” “No you’re wrong! He’s going to call! He is!” “You’re right about something though. He doesn’t think you’re weak or a joke because that would mean that he thinks about you and that would mean that you’re something. All you are, all you will ever be is nothing.”

I would always lose to my dark side. I would end up just going to the storage closet and crying.

After my crying phase, I got into my lifeless stage. Where ever I went, whatever I did, my face would be like a blank canvas. You know how if you mix too many colors together it just makes black? That’s how I felt. I was filled with so many emotions that I just turned black inside. I couldn’t talk to anyone. Not even Sofy. I didn’t have dreams or nightmares. Sleeping was just to sleep. When I did talk, they we’re just basic one worded answers like “ya” or “sure”.  

The third phase was anger. I would start getting angry at anything that had to do with him. Whenever I heard Sofy say the name James, it pissed me off. I would even scream at her. She never would scream back I’m guessing because she understood what I was going through. She would just apologize and walk off. I even started to hate Frank Sinatra because his song was the song that I sang to Niall whenever he was scared. That made me even angrier because I hated something my mother loved.

After that phase I went into my recovering stage. I’m in it right now actually. I’m still sad, but not as much as before.

Even though I’m not a maid anymore, the other maids let me still go in the cleaning storage closet whenever I want. They gave me a key just for myself. I go in there just to think really.

I am now starting to realize that even though Niall made me shattered inside. He also made my life better. Before I even met him, I was depressed and “to myself”. Now I have the sister that I’ve always wanted, a better job, I go out more, and many other things.