Food is a thing of its own.
Sometimes I'm hungry.
Sometimes I'm not hungry.
There's nothing wrong with that.
The real problem with this is my appetite.
Too big an appetite.
Too little appetite.
Existing appetite.
Lack of appetite.
I always think I'm getting fatter with every bite.
I always think that my appetite is worse than that of others.
I always think about food.
Eating here.
Food is here.
Is it stress that drives me to constantly need something?
Is it fear that drives me to do this?
Do I have an eating disorder?
No.
Right?
What if...?
Can they be cured?
The only eating disorder I know is anorexia. If I had an eating disorder, it would be the exact opposite.
Instead od wanting little food, I want a lot.
So maybe binge eating?
But I always fell like throwing up after I ate something.
Does this mean, I maybe have bulimia or something like that?
The thought of food hurts. Just thinking about it feels like I'm getting fatter.
Thicker and thicker.
The comments about my weight or those damn workout videos don't really help either.
But what good does that do me now?
Will anyone even be able to understand me?
Please... Don't let me be the only one.
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Trains of thought
PoetryJust some of my random thoughts that need to be written down, otherwise my headache will never go away. You can read it, but you don't have to. You can leave me comments, but you don't have to. It would be nice to know that I'm not alone with my con...
