cigarettes out the window

***Seventeen***

y/n pov

i decide to knock on suna's door the morning of the amusement park day to see if he was coming since he never spoke.

"hey... can i come in?" i say through the door but get no response so i open the door and spot him sitting on his bed on his phone with earbuds in "hey"

he takes an earbud out "what?"

i sigh "i just wanted to see if you were coming today"

"no im not, go away"

"what's wrong rintarou?" i ask softly "this isn't like you"

"i said, go away" he replies a little more harshly

"seriously suna" i say feeling offended but i take a deep breath "you've been there for me through so much, i just want to do the same"

"well i don't need you" he says and i felt my heart drop

"fine then" i say my voice breaking and i leave the room closing the door behind me.

i sigh and go to the bathroom to get ready trying to ignore his words but they stayed lingering in my head. i was just trying to be there for him but clearly he doesn't need me... i need to lose feelings for him.

later that day

we arrive at the amusement park, some of the guys already being there. we all said hello to one another and waited for everyone else to arrive. everyone was here except for the miya twins and suna... obviously.

"where's suna and the twins?" shirabu asks

"not sure, suna has been moody" i sigh

"man period" aran comments and he receives lots of giggles from everyone

"oh! atsumu is calling me" i say to everyone and answer the phone "hey"

"hey y/n, we will be there in a bit, you guys can go on"

"are you sure? we can wait"

"nah it's fine"

"mkay, see ya later"

"see ya!" he says and i end the call

"he said they will be here in a bit and we can go on without them" i shrug

atsumu pov

"suna, i just called y/n saying we will be there" i say sternly

"yeah, YOU guys... not me"

"suna this is stupid, tell us what's wrong" osamu says

suna sighs finally giving in "i just feel like a piece of shit"

"why's that?" my twin asks looking hopeful
since we could finally be getting somewhere with him

"well i had feelings for y/n-"

"HAD?! WAIT WHAT WH-" i start feeling shocked as to why he would lose them suddenly

"atsumu" osamu says glaring at me

"sorry"

suna lets out a frustrated sigh "anyway, i feel dumb because i never put two and two together that she could be dating semi already... it was obvious too. so now im just trying to distance myself from her and i guess im just hurting because i truly liked her a lot"

i think back to a conversation aiya and i had once...

flashback

"so wait... is l/n dating anyone?" i ask aiya since im assuming she would know because of girl talk "im just wondering because of her relationship with the shiratorizawa boys"