Life of a Failed Broadway Star

Chapter 4

I don't really remember the cab ride to Locks place. All I know is I wanted to get my mind off of Jake.

I knock on his door, he opens it and all I see is his groggy eyes and his boxers. I was sober enough to know he didn't get my text.

He looks me up and down and questions, "Pip...what the hell are you doing at my apartment?"

"Get up old man it's only 8:30." I push past him into his apartment, he's been rude to me why not be the same?

He groans and slams the door. I plop myself on his couch and see some weird show on the T.V.

"Let me go and get pants on...then I'll figure this all out." He moves his finger in a circular motion as he says that and stumbles into his bedroom. Either he was drunker than me or he really didn't want to get up.

I get settled into the couch then I realize what show he was watching....Doctor Who. Lock watches Doctor Who. Lock is a pure nerd. Forgetting Lock was in the next room I just start laughing. It was the kind of laughing where you hope you get abs with, maybe it was the fact I was half way drunk or emotionally unstable that I was laughing so hard at a simple thing.

I finally stop and see Lock standing behind the T.V giving me a very questionable glace, "You are so drunk."

I nod, "Also you are such a nerd! Doctor Who?"

He rolls his eyes and plops himself next to me on the couch. He looks at the T.V for a minuet and excitedly screams, "This is the episode where 11 regenerates! This episode is so sad."

I try to keep myself from laughing, I had never seen this side of Lock. The nerdy side and not the sarcastic douche bag side.

The show actually wasn't that bad. But I couldn't stop thinking about Jake, I thought he was my soul mate but he just turned out like all of the others. Not like there were many others before Jake. We did start dating around 10th grade.

I stop thinking about him and actually tune into the show.  I was guessing this Doctor character was about to die or something because the short brown haired girl was crying and he was saying things that sounded like last words.

"We all change. When you think about it, we're all different people through our lives, and that's okay, that's good, you've got to keep moving as long as you remember all the people that you used to be."

When the Doctor says that it felt like the world froze. I was becoming a new person, a person without Jake. The transition felt like I was being stabbed in the heart but it's what needed to happen. Whoever this "new person" would be, she would be a better version of this one. Yes, I still needed to remember the way I felt right now, the pain and the hurt of losing a special relationship, but I could get through it. I didn't need Jake, he just slowed me down while I tried to reach for my dreams. I knew this breakup would hurt for a while, but the new person to come would be so much better then who I am right now.

I snap out of my break through and look at Lock. He had a small tear rolling down his face, dang this boy was dedicated to this show.

I tap his shoulder and he quickly wipes his eyes and gives me an angry "what" look.

"Jake was cheating on me..." I whisper.

His whole facial expression changes. I didn't even have to say it loudly but he completely understood. He pulls me into a hug and whispers in my ear, "I'm so sorry Pip...you can get through this. Your strong, stronger than anyone I have ever met. That's what I could tell about you when we first met few days ago. You can talk to me about anything."

I smile as tears start to roll down my cheek. I wish they could stop but the floodgates were opened, I couldn't stop even if I wanted to. Lock just held me there in his arms for about 30 minuets. I know a long time but I didn't want to leave his arms, I felt comforted and I could forget about Jake for a bit.

I pull away from him after our little session and I could see I made a little tear stain on his shirt, hopefully he wouldn't awkwardly point it out.

He gives me a little smile and says, "I know what will make you forget about that d-bag."

He ran into his room and came out with a DVD case. I was too emotionally and physically tired to ask him what he had. I just sat back in the couch a little bit more as he skipped through the previews. He walks over and jumps onto the couch and gives me a smug smile. What did this boy have up his sleeve?

Then I look at the TV and realize he put in Sweeney Todd. I almost burst out laughing, the buzz of the vodka from later felt like it was ending so I was genuinely laughing at his choice of movie.

"Why would you chose a creepy musical for me to watch...to get over a break up?"  I awkwardly ask.

"Well you will just be thinking about how creepy this is and not about the other thing. Pippa I have brains I'm not just a sarcastic, flirty, hard head." He arrogantly replies.

I roll my eyes. No use fighting with the 'sarcastic, flirty, hard head'  I would have used some other choice words.

I ended up passing out on Locks couch after Mrs. Lovett sings By the Sea. All I know is Haily is not going to be happy, but I knew I was somewhat happy from confiding in him.