Llama Hats and Lion Roars (Phan)

Part 5

Phil's P.O.V.

Kiss him. Do it. He is right there. My thoughts kept nagging me. But I couldn't. I had attempted to hold his hand. He didn't seem to mind my hand being there. It felt amazing. I kept rethinking the memory.

I grabbed our dishes and said,"Sorry." I was in need of a quick escape.

He followed me in, obviously worried. "What are you sorry for?"

"What are you sorry about?"

"Oh nothing."

"Phil, people don't just looked shocked, apologize, then jump up and leave the room without there being something wrong."

I turned to look at him. "Dan, do you remember what you said two nights ago at the party?"

He looked like he was in deep thought. He was searching as hard as he could. "I don't know. But just because I can't completely remember it, does not mean it isn't important. I mean, it obviously is. What did I do or say to make you mad? What ever I did, I apologize."

I looked down. The voice was back:kiss him. He is right there. Do it. "Well, what does this do for you?"

He started speaking, but I didn't want to hear anything he had to say. Not before I did this. I put my arms around his waist and pulled him in. His lips on mine. He didn't pull away.

He kissed back.

A new layer of emotion flowed through me.not just the tingling sensation, but I felt like I was loved back. Maybe he got the tingling sensation.

The kiss was only 8 seconds, but if felt like years. Not just the emotional layers I was feeling, but the nagging doubt. Kissing back is just instinct. It has been years, don't you think he would have done something to profess his love? This has been going on so long, he hasn't said anything, you are screwed.

He ran to his room. I didn't hear a word from him the rest of that day. He didn't leave his room. What had I done?
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{12 hours later}
I didn't feel like eating that day. So I just went to bed and hoping that we could forget.

I woke up not even two minutes later with Dan lying beside me in my bed. We didn't say a word. We just lie there.
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{Next Day}
I woke up with an arm around my waist, and a right leg over my left leg. Then I remembered the night before. Is this real? How could this happen? He must have feelings for me, right?

I turned over on my left side and lo and behold, Dan. "Hey," I said breaking the ice. "how long have you been awake?"

"Not long."

"So, about last night..." I started. I needed to know.

"What, can you not remember? That's ironic."

"No. I definatly remember. But I wanted to clear some things up."

"This should clear it all up for you." He sat up, and looked at me as he said it. " We met in 2009, correct?"

"Yeah."

"That was six years ago, correct?"

"Yeah."

"So, if I do the math, that is," he paused to make a confused face,"Six years I would have done anything to be able to fall asleep next to you."

I didn't know what to say. I just looked at him. I tried to force as much love I could into my eyes. So then maybe he could tell. "Oooohhh. Danny is in loooovveee."

"Yes I am. I love you Phil." He leaned over and kissed me, then walked out of the bed room.