Losing control

Epilogue

* eight years later*

Selena POV :

After almost ten years in this psychiatric hospital, I was finally going to be released for good behaviour. Living here is even worse than prison. And I know what I'm talking about, I did it for a few months at the start of my trial. At least it made me realise that I wasn't crazy and that it was the others who wanted me to believe that.

I had very few visitors. My mother came to see me once a week at first, then very quickly we switched to once a month, then once every Christmas... My cousin came from time to time too. But apart from that, nobody.

I found it hard to accept the fact that Demi didn't come to see me, especially after she'd promised to do so. But now that I'm a free woman, it's forgotten, it's behind me.

"So where are you going to go now?" asked Sabine, my favourite nurse.

"To my girlfriend's house," I said, smiling broadly. Only Sabine knew all about it.

"She'll be so happy, I can't even imagine," she said, handing me the last of my things.

"Come and see us when you can... give us some news, I'm sure the others will be pleased to see how you're getting better".

"Of course I will... Sabine, thank you again for everything" I said before walking away.

Wow... I was finally out as a free woman for the first time in years.

"Selena... my little girl.... it feels so good to be able to hug you without those stupid guards around us," said my mother.

"It really does feel good," I said as I got into the car.

"I've invited a few people over to the house tonight, I hope you don't mind.

"Oh... no, no" I said, looking out of the window. A lot had changed in eight years.

"You know where your room is," said my mother, laughing nervously.

Look at me, 28 years old and still living with my mum in my teenage bedroom.

Nothing had changed, still the same photos on the wall, the same sheets and my dressing room was still intact. It was as if nothing had changed in eight years.

I had to get some rest before the guests arrived. I really didn't feel like seeing anyone, but after all the time I'd been away... I could do my mother a favour.

"Oh my god, Selena, we're so happy for you, we know how hard it must have been... in fact we wanted to tell you... sorry we didn't come to see you, it's just that with work and everything it was complicated..." said my aunt.

"Yes, it was complicated... but now that you're here, we're not going to let go of each other any more!" added my cousin, pregnant to the neck.

"It's fine... I understand, I wouldn't have come to see me if I'd had the chance too, you know".

"Don't say that, Selena!

"I'm just kidding" I said to lighten the mood, even though I wasn't laughing at all.

After that we ate a delicious meal, it was a nice change from hospital food and then we talked about life and stuff.

When I went up to my room I fell like a lump into bed. It felt good to sleep in a real bed after all that time. I had to get some rest, tomorrow, I had a long day ahead of me.

First thing in the morning my mother decided to take me shopping.

"You've got to get some nice clothes if you want to start work soon," she said as we walked into the mall.