Gumising ako ng wala ulit siya sa tabi ko. Ano din naman ang aasahan ko 'diba? Hindi niya ako mahal. Napilitan lang s'yang pakisamahan ako dahil 'yon ang gusto ng ama niya.
His father like me for him, pero hindi niya ako gusto para sa kanya. I don't know, but I really want him to like me.
"You're leaving already?" Tanong ko. He didn't answer me. Instead, he just walk towards the door and didn't say anything.
Tinikom ko ang bibig ko. Ano ba ang inaasahan ko sa kanya? Hindi kami magiging okay. Aalis na sana ako para umakyat pero biglang bumukas ang pintuan.
"Don't wait for me to come back. Hindi ako uuwi ngayon, I'll stay with—"
"Kelsey." Ako na ang sumagot. "You can go where you want. For as long as... I know where you're going and who's with you."
He nodded, umalis na s'ya pagkatapos. While me, sitting, and thinking how did my life fucked up.
"Kaya mo 'yan, Zephanie. Wala namang masama." I console myself.
But it hurts... It's hurting myself.
Flashbacks.
"I don't want to marry her, dad!" Sigaw ni Borly sa ama niya. "I don't want to marry her! She's not my type! Kaya pwede ba? Don't make a fuss."
His father slapped him. Napatup ako sa bibig dahil sa gulat. "How dare you," his father catching his breath. "Noong bata pa kayo kayo ang pinagkasundo namin ni Facundo. You even agree! What's wrong with you now, Borly?"
"I don't like her!" He said. Making my heart ache. I bowed my head, so that he didn't see my expression. I'm hurting. Real bad.
"How dare you disrespecting my decision, you idiot?! It's your chance to be with her!"
I saw how Borly's eyes landed into me. I gulped, I know he's mad at me. "This is your fault. You manipulated my father with your fucking mouth."
I shooked my head, "hindi ko sinabi 'yan sa ama mo."
"The decision is final, Borly Luiz, you will marry Zephanie."
Umalis ang kanyang ama ng hindi man lang kami binalingan ng tingin. Borly's eyes never left mine. He's staring at me like he wants me gone.
"Borly..." I murmured, trying to hold his hand but he's so stron that I stumbled on the floor when he pushed me hard.
I silently feel the pain on my butt. "Your sorry won't turn back the time. My father already decided. I will marry you, yes I will marry you. But don't expect that I will reciprocate my feelings on you. Because I don't love you, I hate you. Zephanie"
Dahan-dahan akong nagtungo at lumuhod sa harap niya, "what do you want me to do..." I murmured, "If you want me to kneel, I would, p-please marry me..."
He laughed, "looking at you right now, makes me puked. How come a woman begged on his knees to marry her, to love her" aniya, "I don't love you the way I love Kelsey"
"Why does it have to be her" I said. "K-kung ako nalang Borly, kaya ko namang magmahal eh"
Tumayo ako at handa na sana siyang halikan pero umiwas siya, I kissed his neck, not on the lips.
"M-mamahalin mo rin ako..." I murmured, "you will learn to love me, Borly"
Tumalikod siya sa akin. Umupo ako sa kama at do'n ko na nilabas ang lahat ng sakit.
"Why does it have to be her, Borly" I murmured.
Hours passed, I just found myself sleeping. Dahil sa pagod ng aking mga mata ay hindi ko na naiwasan ang ipikit ang aking mga mata.
