𝑺𝒂𝒊𝒍𝒐𝒓 𝑺𝒐𝒏𝒈

01 confused

I switched off the blasting music from my headphones and quickly wiped my tears running down my face. I looked at the mirror at my vanity seeing my red eyes and nose along with tear stained cheeks. I have to pull myself together. I quickly rummaged through my drawer for my concealer to cover up the fact i just bawled my eyes out at 8 in the morning. Enough with the emo shit Vivian time to lock in. I flung my bag over my shoulders and quickly went downstairs.

"Vivian sweetie come sit down I made you some eggs for breakfast." My mother said as she transferred the egg from the pan to a plate. I stared at the plate hesitant to take a bite.

"I'm alright mom I'm gonna be late I better get going." I said before rushing out the door. My vision became blurry with tears, I felt bad for wasting food especially since my mother made it for me. I took a sip of water to calm myself down and continued walking to school.

AT SCHOOL
"Hey guys!" I said as I went over to greet my friends with a warm embrace.

"Hey girl your boyfriend is looking for you~" Stacy teased as she pushed me towards my boyfriend , Ethan , one of the best athletes in our school the 'dream' boyfriend every girl wants except well me. About a year ago I was a lesbian actually I still am one , I got scared of the idea of dating a girl especially with homophobic parents so I convinced myself I was straight. When Ethan confessed to me I said yes because I thought being with him would stop myself from being liking girls , that plan didn't quite work out... The only person who knew I was gay was Lynn Loud jr.

Being neighbors, we practically grew up together but officially became friends in the 6th grade. She wasn't just one of the top athletes but she was the top athlete in our entire school. But I started drifting apart from her ever since I dated Ethan so me and her are on awkward terms now.

Today was Friday which was one of the days Ethan would stay back for baseball practice so I would sit on the bleachers and wait for him so we could walk home together. How romantic. I sat at my usual spot while finishing some algebra questions when I saw a red Jersey with the number one on it at the corner of my eye. I looked up and saw Lynn walk past me,glaring.

My heart sank a little it was hard seeing my best friend act so coldly to me well I don't even think I can call her that since we barely talk now.

30 minutes later

I went up to go to the bathroom but when I exited the cubical I saw Lynn. Again. I washed my hands trying to avert my gaze hoping she would say something to break the awkward tension between us,which was completely delusional. Suddenly the sound of the running water stopped and she quickly walked to the door when I impulsively grabbed her hand.

I froze with my hand gripping her wrist. I looked at her hand then her puzzled face and slowly let go. The words were at the tip of my tongue begging to be let out but I resisted. Lynn glared at me again before trying to walk out the bath room again.

"Wait Lynn please." I said practically begging.

I could see her shoulders slightly tense before letting out a sigh and turning around to face me.

"What." She said bluntly.

Come on Vivian say it! This is your chance to tell her how you feel!

"I-I.." I muttered struggling to say the last two words.

"I miss you." I blurt out.

Lynn stood there unamused by my statement with her arms crossed in front of her.

"Is that all you wanna say? After all these months?" She said a hint of pain could be heard in her words.

"I really do Lynn. I'm sorry for letting Ethan come between us." I said on the verge of tears with my voice breaking a little bit. I desperately waited for a response from her as she simply scoffed.

"Yeah. You better be." She said sternly while staring me down.

I was appalled by her rude response. This isn't the Lynn I know. I could see how hurt she was despite her exasperated expression. I knew deep down she returned the same feeling.

"Do you... do you even like him?" Lynn's voice cracked slightly as she licked her lips before storming out the bathroom.

Authors note

HEY GUYS😝 starting a new series hope you enjoyed it so far. Ik it's a bit angsty and sad but I promise it will get better please trust the process bye!😘