It (always) starts with "No"

I love you, I can't stay.

Over the past month Malia stopped being herself. Not to mention the countless texts she sent to Kylie apologising asking to meet up and talk. Nothing. That went on until ultimately her texts went green. Kylie had seen them surely...
But why didn't she respond?
Malia took that as an invitation not to give up. So she didn't. She went over to her place and knocked on the door. Of course Alex Cantrall opened it. Kylies father. It seemed like he didn't know what had went down between Kylie and Malia so he let her in. She walked up the stairs to Kylies room nervous. This was probably the best ot the dumbest thing she's ever done. She was about to find out.... With that se knocked on her door. "Kylie... Can we talk? Please?" She asked her voice quiet almost afraid. Kylie groaned and opened the door. "What do you want Malia? Came to crush me once more? It's a fun game for you now huh?" She said her voice bitter.
"No.. i want to apologise. I miss you." She says walking in closing the door behind her.
"A simple sorry doesn't fix the 2 years i spent crying wondering where i went wrong.." Kylie said looking a bit embarrassed that she actually said that, that she let she guard down so fast.
"Kylie. I didn't know how to cope with what i was feeling. It wasn't about you. It was never about you." Malia said her eyes glossy. She was being genuine.
"Then what's it about Malia? What did i do to make you leave?" Kylie said raising her voice a little.
"You did nothing! That's the problem!" Malia was getting defensive now. And Kylie wasn't here for it.
"Then tell me Malia! Tell me! What do i need to do for you to stay! Because from where I'm standing you're always leaving! Always running!" Kylie says they're argument getting louder by the second. With tears streaming down her cheeks she's finally speaking her mind. Letting all the questions she's had for years spill out.
But Malia doesn't say anything. In one swift motion Kylie feels Malias lips on hers. For a second she stands there shocked but she kisses her back wrapping her hands around Malias neck. "Lia.." Kylie pulls away. "Why. Why did you have to leave." Kylie asks yet again. Malia sighs and answers "i'm lesbian Kylie. I didn't know how to tell you." She takes a deep breath. "I couldn't tell you i was inlove with you." Kylie looks at her, the words sending a chill down her spine. Did she really love her? Before she could overthink it she kissed Malia. This time with more passion, conveying all of the emotions she's felt over the years for Malia. Love, hate and everything in between. This was her way to drown out whatever doubts she had. She wanted to live in the moment. At least for now.

Smutty warning ‼️ (dw its not gonna be that smutty)

Malias hands travel down to Kylies waist pulling her closer. Their kisses getting messier, more demanding. But Kylie let it happen. She had dreamt of this day... where Malia would want her as more than a friend.
Kylie couldn't wait, she stumbled towards the bed pulling Malia ontop of her. She trailed kisses down Kylies neck to her collarbone making her let out quiet moans. That was music to Malias ears. The sounds Kylie made fuelled her desire to go further. Kylie took off her shirt and was about to unclip her bra when Malia stopped her.
"Kylie.. we shouldn't be doing this." She said breathless. Kylie frowned.
"You wanted this Malia. I want you. Is that so hard to see?" She groaned frustrated.
"Kylie.. i'm not good for you." She muttered out.
"I don't want to take your virginity then disappear again." She said standing up looking out the window. Anything not to face Kylie.
Kylies expression turned from disappointment to hurt.
"Why would you say that? Why do you keep coming back just to tell me you're leaving?" Kylie asked tears filling her eyes.
"My heart wants you Malia. Isn't that enough? Why do you have to keep disappearing? Can't you stay? Just stay with me." Malia was slient. Kylie stood up turning Malia towards her. "At least look at me goddamnit!" She cried out.
"I can't..." Malia replied her voice low, a faint whisper.
"Please, Malia don't do this!" She was practically sobbing.
"Why don't you want me..." she said her voice cracking. Malia finally faced her and took her hands in hers.
"There's nothing more i want than to have you. To love you." She said looking deep into her eyes.
"But i can't. You know that i'm no good. You deserve better." Malia said and gave Kylie one last lingering kiss before leaving, whispering "i love you. I'm sorry."
Kylie just sat there on the floor bare and vulnerable. She didn't know what to do. She was going to spiral again and it wasn't looking great.
She knew something was keeping Malia from being with her but she just had to figure it out...

That was a few years ago...
Kylie was now 19 starting college. Never figured out what held Malia back. Yet she still hadn't given herself to anyone. Hell she hadn't even dated anyone else. Clinging onto the hope that Malia might come back someday. That she might come back and finally love her...

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Oop double post 👀

Don't get used to it 😜
How do we like the little twists🤭