Eye for an eye

Chapter 18 - Not My Fault

Asmara POV-

I didn't understand what just happened. Samandar...he..he just raped me. He forced himself on me. I tried so hard to get away from him but..but he didn't understand a single word which I said to him.

He didn't heard my begs, my sobs, my cry. Alcohol was running on his mind. This Samandar was not that person which I fell in love with. It feels like he was someone else.

He left me naked with bruises on all over my body. Every inch of my body was hurting because of how badly he raped me. But most of all my heart was hurting. I regret having feelings for him. He didn't deserve that.

My eyes were swollen because of crying. It felt like that tears were finished. My tears were dried because of crying so hard. Now I'm just laying on the bed, watching the ceiling blankly.

All this was none of my fault, I'm the victim here. Zaraar is guilty as equal as Samandar. And me..I'm crushed between these two. I don't know what will happened next.

What will Samandar do next? Is he gonna hurt me again? While thinking all this, my eyes were started getting heavy and the darkness engulfed me.

Next day I woke up with someone caressing my hair strands. I slowly opened my eyes, It takes time to adjust in sunlight which was falling on my face.

I looked little up in the direction of that hand and saw Zaraar sitting and my head was resting on his lap. I get up and face towards him.

I told you that don't go to him.
- He said while looking at me with blank face.

Even If I had not gone, he would have done the same thing which he did last night.
- I said while wiping my tears with my hands.

It's all my fault.
- He whispered.

Yes it is.
- I replied immediately.

You killed his wife..and his..his unborn child. You killed them. You are a murderer. Fucking Murderer.
I can't believe this that I was living with a murderer. I fell in love with you and that was the huge mistake of my life.
- I yelled in anger while getting up and goes towards the bathroom and closed the door.

Asmara just listen to me. Baby, I regret that everyday. It was all my fucking fault. Please open the door. I'm sorry baby.
- He said while banging on the door.

I opened the door and stand fully naked in front of him. To show him what his mistake did to me.

Will this all be fixed if say sorry?
- I said while gesturing towards my bruises.

I started closing the door on his face but he hold the door with his all strength refusing me to close the door.

Don't tell me you didn't enjoy all this.
- He said and I feel like ground moved away beneath my feet.

I can't believe you Zaraar. He raped me. He forced himself on me. It's all your fucking fault and here you are taunting me for all this.
- I said to him.

Don't lie to me Asmara, I know you loved him..you had feelings for him before he did all this..you loved getting fucked by him.
- He said while grabbing my hand forcefully.
I shook my hand away from him and closed the door. I got into shower and sat on the floor.