Kuch baatein shabdon se nahi, dil se samjhi jaati hain. Is ankahi ishq ke jaal mein fasa dil kabhi bahar nahi nikal paata.
Naira’s pov
It’s been two months since my life took such a strange turn. I’ve been living with Yuvaan, who somehow seems to love me and hates me at the same time. My parents are still upset. They haven’t spoken to me since my marriage to Yuvaan, and though it hurts, I keep hoping that when our baby arrives, they’ll be normal again.
But even more confusing is Yuvaan himself. For years, he was my boss who is a demanding, difficult man. Now, he’s my husband, but even after these few months, I feel like I hardly know him. There are so many pieces of him I just don’t get. I talk to him every day about the baby, I share names I like, ideas for the nursery, tiny clothes I’ve found that make me excited.
I want him to share in this joy, to feel the excitement of becoming a parent. But he doesn’t seem interested at all. He barely reacts, and honestly, I don’t even know if he cares about this baby as much as I do.
I remember when I first told him I was pregnant, he showed me so much care. He was protective. But after we got married, that care seems to have faded. He comes home, he’ll kiss me, sometimes we’ll be intimate, not sometimes but most of the time, and then he’ll pull away just as quickly, like he’s completed some checklist. It doesn’t feel loving.
It feels like he’s doing it out of obligation or habit, not because he truly wants to. Whenever I bring it up, asking why he’s so distant or why he doesn’t seem involved in our baby’s future, he just brushes it off, saying he loves me and that I’m being too critical. But I can’t shake this feeling that he’s hiding something or maybe that he just doesn’t care as much as he claims to.
And then there’s Dev. He was such an important part of my life, and I haven’t seen him since the day Yuvaan and I got married. That last time I met him, he gave me this rudraksh bracelet, telling me it was a symbol of our bond. He told me to take care of myself, even gave me advice about pregnancy, almost like he was looking out for me in his own way. But then he disappeared. No calls, no visits. Nothing.
Yuvaan told me yesterday that Dev is supposed to come by today, that he’s been away visiting his family, but it feels so strange. Why wouldn’t Dev reach out even once? We were so close, and it’s like he vanished overnight.
I don’t understand any of this. I feel lost in my own marriage, with so many unanswered questions and so much uncertainty. Yuvaan says he loves me, but his actions feel empty. And Dev, someone I trusted deeply, is just gone without a word.
I sat on the bed, carefully rubbing ointment on the bruises I’d gotten from last night. Yuvaan calls them love bites, but to me, they feel more like bruises that won’t go away. He bit me hard on my neck, insisting it was just a mark of his affection, but there are so many marks like that now. Some of them still hurts, while others are fading into a constant ache.
Every night he comes home late, and it’s as if he’s got this wild, restless energy. He barely speaks before he’s touching me, pulling me close like he’s got something to prove or like I’m something he owns.
When we first got together, I thought he was passionate, intense but affectionate in his own way. But lately, that intensity has shifted into something I barely recognize. He says it’s because I’m pregnant, that my hormones mean I need more intimacy, but the way he acts, it’s almost as if he’s forgotten there’s more to us than just that physical connection.
He doesn’t stop when I ask him to, even when I tell him it’s too much. Instead, he just keeps going, like he’s in some kind of trance, pushing me past any comfort I have left.
