STARSTRUCK LOVE || [MxM]

17. Grandmother

Seo Joon's POV

I can now barely control my feelings for Ki Seok. I was hungry for him and I relished kissing him on the beach. I almost gave in to my feelings when Ki Seok started trailing his finger on my face. But there is something he should know before we take the plunge. I will have to wait for the right time to open up to him.

He has confided in me about his past and I should do the same I almost told him about it but stopped midway. What if he doubts my intentions? What if he thinks I approached him on purpose? What if he turns away when he finds out the truth? I have had these thoughts ever since he has told me that he likes me.

I am not going to keep him in dark and take this relationship forward. Once I am ready to tell him about my secret, I will wait for him to decide if he still wants me in his life. Till then I will not get intimate with him. However much I need him, he deserves to know what I should tell him.

"I am sorry." I hear Ki Seok apologizing again, it brings me out of my thoughts.

"It's not your fault." I try to assure him. "There are things which need to be sorted out and my mind is pre occupied with them." I say without looking at him.

"Are you sure you are not upset with me?"

"Well not really. We should now get inside, let me open the door. You must be feeling cold."

We enter the dark room, I reach out for the switch so does Ki Seok at the same time. His touch sends shivers in my body. I pull my hand away. Now with the light on, I can see his face. The love in his eyes is unmistakable. His face is bright with happiness, like a child who has just got his favourite toy. I don't want to ruin his happiness so I just pull him towards me and give him a hug. He is holding me tight, I can feel him smile on my shoulders. I am glad I can give him this kind of joy for now if not more.

As I lay on the bed at night, I recall the day's events. I shut my eyes and I can see a beaming Ki Seok, his hair fluttering in the cool breeze. His hand touching mine. All of a sudden I feel hot. I push the blanket away and sit up. My movement wakes up Ki Seok.

"What is the matter? Are you alright? Did you have a bad dream?" he is raining questions.

"I need to get a glass of water." I turn away from him, fortunately he cannot see my face in the dim light or else my ears which must have been red by now would give me away.

"I will make a call and come." I say moving away from the bed.

I am thankful for the distance between us. Just a couple more days and everything will be alright.

"Okay." He turns back to sleep.

I stand by the window and call my father. It is a little late but I need to hear his voice to calm my nerves. I ask about Sung Mi and then end the call. I feel much better now. I will need to talk to my father once I and Ki Seok start dating each other. I turn around, I can see Ki Seok's face in the faint moonlight falling on his face, he is sleeping peacefully, like a big burden has been lifted off his shoulder.

I have seen him sleeping in my house too, though he slept like a baby even there, I could see that there was something that worried him. Thankfully all that is over now. He looks really calm for the first time.

I join him on the bed. Ki Seok turns and I am now seeing his face I keep staring for some time. I don't know when sleep consumes me.

I wake up with the faint sunlight falling on my face. Ki Seok's one arm is around my waist and his one leg is on my leg making it difficult for me to move. I decide to stay still till he wakes up. But now he moves and his head is tuck in my neck. I feel a little thing. I push him aside and get up. He wakes up with a start. But his smile is back. His morning hair is adding to his charm.