Love And Ashes

Chapter Nine

"You were glaring, why were you glaring, hm?" Iguro asked, taking a drag from his cigarette, his eyes void with curiosity.

"I told you- I wasn't glaring! Just drop it already." Sanemi argued, not wanting to talk about it. How do you even talk about something you don't understand yourself?

He didn't understand at all.

"Whatever.. if you're gay you can just tell me.." iguro mumbled, causing sanemi to stand up abruptly, throwing his cigarette on the ground.

"I am not a fag. Don't even lump me in with those creatures." Sanemi said abruptly, he didn't know why his mood had changed so suddenly.

It was like something triggered that reaction, could it be he was gay? He couldn't be gay. He wasn't allowed. It was a sin to be gay.

That's why giyuu and genya were gonna be going to hell.

Right..?

Iguro looked up at sanemi, slightly surprised, looking at the cigarette on the ground.

"You didn't even take a single hit.. why are you so angry-?" Iguro asked, taking a hit off his cigarette, holding it between his lips as he held eye contact with sanemi.

"Just- I don't know! You're stupid! Just stop!" Sanemi said, stomping out the cigarette. At that moment giyuu and daki came out, looking at the scene infront of them.

Giyuu reached out, putting a hand on sanekis shoulder- only to be slapped away.. harsh.

"Don't touch me. I don't need 'your kinds' hands on me." Sanemi said, pushing him to the side.

Sanemis eyes landed on daki as she grinned giyuu so he didn't fall over, his anger just growing ×10.

"What the hell is your problem-? 'My kind'? I thought we were getting along and blew past that!" Giyuu yelled at sanemi, iguro now standing up.

"Just shit up- you all are annoying! I'm just gonna go!" Sanemi said, going inside to grab his stuff, but giyuu stopped him.

"Sabemi- YOU dragged ME here! You can't just leave now what the fuck is your problem-?!" Giyuu yelled, holding sanemis hand tightly so he couldn't walk away.

Sanemis eyes went down to their hands, slightly softening before he realized what was happening, then he pulled away.

"Fuck off, fag." Sanemi said, elbowing giyuus side, not bad but enough to hurt.

"I hate you. You really do suck." Giyuu said, watching sanemi leave after grabbing his stuff.

Sanemi couldn't help it- the thought of him being gay just.. enraged him- really badly. He couldn't understand why.. well he could.. but he couldn't understand why he would push everyone away when he was mad.

He just hurt giyuu.. and after they were finally getting along too? Why would he do that- and even better, he got rid of a perfectly fine cigarette.

What, because he was a little angry at being called queer?

Maybe his mom was right, maybe he did need to see a therapist about it.

"Stupid people.. stupid feelings.. stupid everything.. i just want to punch something.." sanemi mumbled to himself, his head now starting to ache.

He was regretting his actions and all he wanted to do was smash something.

So that what he did, he went into a store, buying a class drink, and then broke it in a back alley.

That's the best he could do.

'I hate you..'

The words replayed in his head which was now in his hands as he slumped against a building.