You woke up by the thunder. You look around your room and realize that it was all just a dream. It's raining heavily outside, you can see it from your window. You checked the time it's only 4am, so you decided to back to sleep. While you lay back to your pillow, you can feel that your pillow is all wet, and that's when you realize that you were really crying. Your face is wet and there's still tears rolling down your cheeks. You cried even harder after thinking about the dream again because it felt so real and you were scared. Everything that happened that dream, it's something similar to what happened when you were only 8 years old.
-Flashback-
While you were 8 years old, you were playing at your grandma (dad's mom) house with your cousins and suddenly your your mom came and pick you up. You said goodbye to your grandma and went into the car. Your 3 years old sister is sitting right next to you. You felt something different, your mom is not smiling. When you reached home, your mom immediately get the huge luggage from we room and filled in with all our clothes in. You asked her ''where are we going? Are we going to travel?'' She answered, ''yes, we're going to your grandma's (mom's mom) place. We're going to Japan.'' You're usually happy after knowin that you're gonna ride an airplane and travel, but you were not happy at all because your mom totally messed up the whole house, she throws everything in the floor, the house is in a big mess, it's like an earthquake. She even broke a few expensive wine and glasses that your dad kept for years. Then your mom finally stopped and went to your dad's hiding Spot where he hides lots of money in there. Your mom kept all the money in a big bag and went to the airport, but unfortunately there is no air ticket to Japan available on that day. Your mom decides to stay in a hotel and leave the next day. You, your sister and your mom reached the 5star hotel, you saw the huge swimming pool and asked your mom if you are allowed to swim because you love swimming and you're really good at it! You have swimming lessons every weekend. But your mom said no and brought you and your sister up into the room. While you're in the room, you started crying because you missed you dad and your mom actually smoked and drank alcohol, your mom doesn't smoke or drink alcohol! This is the first time you seeing her being like this. And she told you to stop thinking about your dad, she said that you'll never see him again. then, you realize that your parents are divorcing. You cried even harder and that scared your sister so she started crying too. Your mom got annoyed and asked if you wanna take a bathe and sleep. So you said yes and while you're in the bath tub full with water, you thought that your mom is that happy and caring person again. She asked you if you could show her how long you could last your breath in the water, because that was one of the lessons you took in swimming class. You said okay and dive your whole body into the bath tub, for about 15 seconds, you wanted to get out from the bath tub but you couldn't, you felt something heavy above you, it's your mom's hands, she's pushing you down in the bath tub, she's killing you. Suddenly, her phone rang, she stood up and leave you alone In the bathroom, you're lucky that you were still alive. You were not crying but you're scared, you listened the conversation between your mom and the person who called earlier, your heard your mom said ''I'm gonna kill them two (you and your sister, and kill myself after that''. You were so scared, you changed into your clothes and sit nearby the window and stares at the view and finally at the swimming pool. Suddenly someone rang the bell, your mom opened the door and it's your aunt! You felt save after seeing her. You and your mom talked for almost an hour and when she was about to leave, she said her last sentence, ''please don't do stupid things''. You were scared again because you felt unsafe again, you're afraid of your mom. After that, your mom's phon rang once again. After she hang up, she put a little make up on her face because she looks really pale from all those smoking and drinking, you didn't know why she was putting on make up, you don't have the guts to talk to your mom. After an hour or two, someone rang the bell, your mom opened the door and it's your dad. You ran to him and told him to please bring you and sister home. Your dad talked to your mom and apologized and begged her to forgive him and go home. She disagreed but after a few more begged from your dad, your mom decided to go home but she's still angry. Your dad packed and checked out from the hotel. Your dad's beSt friend and his wife picked you four up home. You didn't know why did they sent you two home cause your dad has a lot of cars and he could drive you guys home himself. Then, you reached home.
-End Of flashback-
You cried to bed, all those bad memories that you always wanted to forget never goes away. It stays in your head, ALL THE TIME.
