Clear Water

Chapter One

"They have never known pain, he thought. The realization made him feel desperately lonely." -Lois Lowry

"Augustus nodded at the screen. 'Pain demands to be felt,' he said, which was a line from An Imperial Affliction." -John Green

"But who can remember pain, once it's over? All that remains of it is a shadow, not in the mind even, in the flesh. Pain marks you, but too deep to see. Out of sight, out of mind." -Margaret Atwood

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Chapter One

Cold. And lonely. I wonder if other people my age have ever felt like that. I'm sure they have... Just not the same way as me. How can I say it like that, so easily? 'Me'... And who is 'me'? Who am I? After everything that's happened, I'm not so sure that I know.

Hazel Patterson. That's the name my- well, the name they gave me. If they had only been honest, maybe this wouldn't have been so terrible. Maybe if they had told me the truth...

But they didn't. They lied, and for 5 years, I have lived out that lie. That lie that I've based my entire life on. I trusted them. More than anyone else in this world, I trusted them, and they lied to me. For five years, I lived that lie.

Great, I scoff, now all I've got is anger. Anger at them, anger at the sea, anger that breaks my heart all over again.

I'm shivering still, but not sure if it's from the cold air, the anger, the fear, or the knowledge that I'll have to go back to that place- that dark, bleak, dreadful place- that I thought was my home.

The pain- I feel it, I see it. The pain of what feels like betrayal. Oh, and just to make matters worse, I now have given myself a headache from thinking about it all...

The agony takes hold of me as tears run down my face. I hate them for lying to me. I hate it, I hate them, and I hate myself.

"I HATE YOU!" I yell at the sea, though it cannot hear me.

My head echoes with those same words on repeat, as if they were a broken record, and I had to say it aloud until it left my mind, "I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU, I HATE You... I HAte you... I hate you..."

Suddenly I feel a drop of water fall onto my head. Slowly, the pace of the rain picks up.

The rain is pouring on me, and I realize that I have to find somewhere- anywhere but here- to stay. At least for the time that I can. But one thing is for sure: I will get out of here, and I will find the full truth. I will find my true home, my real family, and I will get out of here.

One word, one singular word, is whispered in the still, cold, air of night, "Escape."

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                                                                                   Author's note!

Hey y'all! Sorry this chapter is so short. I know it doesn't have many answers, but it's kinda just an intro to the story. Should I write some chapters from different POVs? Luv y'all, write to ya later!