bliss - Javon Walton

pt.9

The next morning-

Tessa:

Last night was just perfect. Not only did Javon make all my fears and any other downing feeling disappear, but he also made me feel so happy. Which if i'm being honest, I have not felt actually happy in a while, if ever. How can someone I barely know make me feel like this? How could anyone make me feel like this?

He is just perfect. His idea of a 'first date that's not a date' was absolutely spectacular. I mean why would I ask for anything else.  Does he feel like this? I need to know his feelings. I don't want to assume anything, like that was actually a date. If he's just trying to be friendly. What if that's just his way of being nice to someone he just met.

Jake then barges in, interrupted Tessa from her train of thought. "Yo Tess! How was your 'night of wonders'," Jake asks. "What the fuck does that mean," Tessa questions. "How was your night with Javon, stupid," Jake clears up. "Surprisingly really good. I thought since I had that horrible gut feeling, something terrible was going to happen. 

As you can see it did not. So now I'm stuck confused with my emotions," Tessa explains. "Oh. So are you liking this kid," Jake asks. "That's the thing, I don't know. I've never felt like this. Not even with Asher. This scares me and not to mention its way to soon. I'm lost," Tessa put forth. 

"Aww baby," Isabella whines, entering the room, after overhearing. "Does everybody in this family just love to eavesdrop," Tessa questions, slightly sarcastically.  "I just overheard while walking by, and decided I need to come check on my little sis. Baby," Isabella explains, crooning. 

"Moving on," Jake starts. "So your scared of actually being in love with someone that makes you happy; and it scares you worse since you don't know him that well," Jake asks for confirmation. "Exactly," Tessa groans. "That's okay! It's common for some people. The light scares you because you've been too entangled in the darkness. It just became a habit that you feel you can't undo," Jake stated, ever so wisely. 

"Okay, trying to write a poem over there," Tessa asks, sarcastically. "But yeah that pretty much sums up what I feel," Tessa adds. "Honey, come here," Isabella says, pulling Tessa down into a cuddle; since Isabella was on the floor. "It is okay to feel that way. Just make sure you don't just shut Javon out because you too scared to come to terms with your feelings," Isabella states.

"See where this goes. Give him a chance! Don't throw it all away so easily. Yes your scared. Yes you have a reason to be, considering ever other relationship you have ever witnessed. Like you said, you don't know him that well, but it feels like you do. This is good for you! I want you to be happy! You fucking deserve it," Isabella went on.

"Thank you Isa! I just need to calm down. The rest of the time Javon's here I'll spend time with him, see where it goes. Then after he leaves, I'll have time to think about it and decide what I feel and what this could be," Tessa states. "That sounds like a good idea," Jake agrees. "I have to say I agree as well. You just have to keep me updated as the week progresses," Isabella chimes in. 

Time skip-

Tessa:

Shit! I'm so late I gotta get ready quick. I was supposed to meet up with Emily and Ruby ten minutes ago. 

After a lot of stressing, she finishes getting ready and quickly leaves to go meet up with the girls. 

"Hey queen," Emily greets, as soon as Tessa exits her car. "Hey! It's so good to see you two," Tessa squeals, pulling both of the girls into a big hug. "I'm sorry, I'm so late, I lost track of time," Tessa apologizes. "It okay," Ruby reassures. "What do y'all bitches wanna do first," She quickly asks, switching up.