The Bendy Straw

But he said he loved me!

*Still Liam's POV*

I had to get up at some point. Its been ten minutes since the whole 'I love you but I'm not gay or bi' situation. I cant believe no ones bothered me yet. I got up, I have to leave the closet sometime... I was so confused! How do you do that to somebody?

I opened the door and saw Harry and Zayn sitting on the couch watching some horror movie we've all watched multiple times. They must have heard the door click shut because they turned around and shot simpathetic(?) looks. I gave a weak smile and ran up to my room. Er, Louis and mines room. I hope he's not in there. I don't think I'll be able to keep my 'cool'. I stood outside the door, wondering if I should go inside.

Okay my plan for if hes in there is : Go inside, go into my bed, pull the covers up, ignore Louis, try not to cry.

If Louis isn't in there : close door, lock door, ignore everyone, try not to think about it.

I held my breath and opened the door. Fewf, he's not here. I walked over to the window and looked out to see his car. It wasn't there. He probably went to see Eleanor. The girl he's. in love with. How the fuck did kissing turn into me giving my best friend, my band mate, my crush, a blow job? I couldn't hold it in anymore. I cried. More like sobbed. I had to put a pillow over my face to dull the sound of my cries.

I never felt so, played, broken, dirty since well, high school when I would get bullied.

I heard a knock at the door and just ignored it.The sobs were rocking my body, making it hard to breathe. I was gasping for air. I don't know how long I stayed like this until I heard a voice yelling g for me. I still ignored him. I don't think I could even get up, I feel so broken.

"LIAM JAMES PAYNE OPEN THIS DOOR NOW!" and Irish voice yelled. Niall.

Niall was the reason I was in this position. He dared me to play Seven minutes in heaven with Lou. But I couldn't blame Ni, he didn't know. I did this to myself. I should have came out. I shouldn't have chose dare.

"LIAM OPEN THIS DOOR NOW! I WILL KNOCK THE DOOR DOWN!" Niall threatened. I would have let him in, if I had control over my body. And right now, I don't. I'm crying my eyes out over a person I love. The boy I love, who doesn't love me back. A few moments you heard a thud and a moan of pain.

"Leeyum! please open the door!" Niall complained, banging on the door again. I wobbled out of my bed and unlocked the door. I opened it and saw Niall sitting on the floor, holding his shoulder.

"The door is harder than it looks " Niall said laughing, he stopped when he looked up and saw my face.

"Oh my God Liam! What happened?" Niall said, worry dripping on each of his words. Be got up and gave me a bone crushing hug. I feel into his hug and sobbed. Niall rubbed my back and whispered soothing things in my ear. He pulled me into my room and sat me down.

"Its okay, Liam. Li, its going to be okay" Niall tried to sooth. No Liam its not okay. But I'll let him think that.

"What's wrong, Li? I wont judge you" Niall coaxed. My sobs slowly turned to hiccups but my eyes were sore from all the tears. I don't think I'fe ever cried this hard. Not even when my fish died when I was six. Or when I broke my wrist in grade eight.

"Ni, you wouldn't understand" I cried, sobs rocking my body again.

"I promise you I wont judge you, I wont tell anyone I promise" Niall said, he knew something was wrong, I never broke down. Not even when we lost the X Factor.

"Pinky promise?" I said holding out my pinky.

He linked his pinky with mine and said, "Promise. "