Normal - What Autism feels like (to me) (NOT FINISHED)

Why I embraced my Autism and why you should too

I recently got into University after getting my high school diploma. I was so proud of myself! 

Life at uni is pretty hard and overwhelming. I really am not really comfortable with the complete autonomy, doing everything alone and by yourself. I mean, school was so easy. Everywhere was a helping hand, we got reminders, practices, a routine and the school handed us our schedules...  everything changed. In uni, everything is a "you can and probably should but it's your choice" instead of "you have to do this and that and here you have to do ...". This bugs me a lot. It was crazy that I had to enroll/sign up for my subjects and create my schedule all by myself! 

Additionally, we now have two online platforms where we are supposed to manage everything... oh wow. 

Anyhow, even though it's overwhelming, we luckily have support for people with any kind of disability! I wanted to apply for the compensation of disability/disadvantages. It took a lot of time because, well (insert a big pause) reasons, bureaucracy. When I was talking to an assistant at the uni, they were really emphasizing on the "you don't need or have to tell anyone your diagnosis". I perfectly understand this as for personal preferences and of course - Data Protection and overall privacy - but this reminds me of this one thing. This one thing that I really despise. I hate when neurodivergent feel ashamed of being neurodivergent, and I hate even more when people that aren't even affected try to advocate for us and say things like: "Noooo, you shouldn't say disability or disabled. You should say challenged, differently abled or a person with special needs!"

uh huh, Why wouldn't I be disabled? Is it the fear that someone judges you? Why should you be judged when you call me disable? I mean come on, my brain is wired differently and I do have my challenges. Why should I be ashamed about a fact? Yes I'm autistic, yes I'm disabled, so what? I can still live life to its fullest! why couldn't I in the first place? I'm sitting on my desk, forming coherent thoughts on what I'll write! So I'm good after all. I think a lot of people just have this stereotype of an autistic person when I tell them and they're like "What? how? I thought autistic individuals can't talk! But you're not weird and wearing those big ear protectors!" 

Obviously there are autistic people like that but like this quote says - if you know one autistic person, you know one autistic person (only, meaning that every autistic person is different. Autism is just like a fingerprint - unique!) So, NO not everyone will behave like Sheldon Cooper.