After running for what left like ages he stopped near the shore he visited last night with Hoseok... He just couldn't help but to feel on his knees crying his heart out... He took his phone out with a shaky hand and stared at his home- screen which was still the same picture it used to 7 years ago of them joining their hands together while staring at one another with eyes filled with only love and love "Y-you intentionally did right Wonu... Why did you never tell me... Why did you suffer alone...WHY WHY WHY" SeokJin is heart broken all over again, his emotional foundation is shattered with the truth of Wonwoo's passing away... All these years, he kept blaming Wonwoo for breaking his heart... playing with his feelings or more like using him but... he had no idea that the man he loved the most was fighting for his life... going through the pain of dying slowly...
SeokJin felt a heavy sensation in the chest and a pit in his stomach... Thoughts being consumed by memories of the younger male who left left him in a daze... everything around him appears to bleak and uncertain...
He screamed loudly to surpass the ache and profound sense of emptiness, like a void left by the absence of Wonwoo who was an integral part of his life... His emotions are fluctuating between deep sadness, anger, and confusion, as he grapples with the reality of the loss...
"WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYY"
The sense of vulnerability is intense, as SeokJin's emotional walls are dismantled, leaving him exposed and raw…
That's when he felt a hand on his shoulder...and the owner of the hand just stared at him , eyes filled with tears with a small sad smile on his face… Jungkook sat beside SeokJin who was trying his best to control the tears but he can't... It's hard... More than their break up... Even if Wonwoo left him, a part of him always hoped for them to meet again... But this... He can't... "I am sorry... I know it's hard" the younger male whispered... They ran after Jin but stopped once they saw him sitting at the shore... Crying and screaming... It was clear that SeokJin is Wonwoo's boyfriend... Hoseok is standing the distance giving privacy to those two as they both lost someone dear to them
Seokjin's head hung low " I am so s-sorry I... I wasn't there for him in his last days" he choked on his own sobs... Why did Wonwoo do this? What sense of heroism did he achieve by doing this?They could have spent their last day happily together... Only if he knew "I hate your brother... He is the meanest guy ever... I hate him so... Why did he never tell me.. why did he have to go like that... If I meet him in the afterlife I am gonna beat the shit out of him... I am telling you "
Jungkook chuckled in between his tears... "You know... He never told me your name but when I asked 'What about your boyfriend?' he smiled at me before saying 'I love him more than you or anyone could imagine... I know he will be upset and hate me for what I did to him but I didn't had the guts to watch you die everyday with me... It's a stupid logic... But I don't know... I don't want him to stop living his life because of me... You know, he is very stubborn... But I love him' apparently my brother was stupid but he never stopped loving you until his breath... Because his last words were... 'I love you, Kookie... But I love my Little hamster more'..."
Seokjin's breaths turned heavy from crying so hard "and I have him... I hate him for never including me in his bad times... He never wanted me to stop living my life. Guess what?My life stopped after he left me... I started to overwork... I hate taking breaks because there wasn't a single moment when I didn't think about him... Even till this date i couldn't have the guts to change my wallpaper and that idiot... I swear I am gonna kill him once I meet him again..i..My Wonu" he choked in between his sobs while gasping for air... He just can't... This pain is too unbearable for him… Jungkook hugged the older male and started caressing his back... "Please relax... I know it is hard... And please hit him from my side too…" Seokjin hugged him even tighter "I will... That moron stupid asshole... How dare he exclude me during this hardest time... I couldn't even say goodbye to that idiot... I wish I could tell him how much I miss him... Even if I hate him for doing all this to me still I love him the most more than anything or anyone...i love him... I love my idiot... I love my Wonu"
They kept crying while Hoseok was shedding silent tears, standing at a distance where he doesn't disturb them but still hears everything... And in all honesty, these two cute idiots are pretty loud... He is feeling bad for Jungkook and SeokJin because he can't even imagine how it feels to lose someone from the bottom of your heart... Or maybe... He can... He has been through heartbreak too... He also lost the person he loved to this fucking society…
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